From Tired of Lyme.com
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4 Scary Realities of Having Lyme Disease
Fall is the one time of the year where most people deliberately subject themselves to fallacious horror in order to conjure a good scare. A scare founded and supported on the knowledge that what lay behind it isn’t real. However, many this year will have their own scares, fears, and anxieties generated from a reality that a hayride simply can’t touch - chronic Lyme Disease. There currently doesn’t exist any formal or official procedure for diagnosing and treating chronic Lyme Disease by the medical community. |
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In other words, a person who unknowingly suffers from the symptoms of chronic Lyme Disease and attempts to find an answer or cause for these symptoms, simply can not get in the car, drive to the doctor’s office, and expect that their everyday doctor will be able to reasonably, by proper medical procedure, identify and swiftly and painlessly (i.e., paid for by insurance) provide the treatment for what that doctor, like all everyday family doctors, should be entirely capable of diagnosing and treating as chronic Lyme Disease.
1. Herxheimer reactions
A herxheimer reaction is the debilitating physical and mental state a person endures when the Lyme bacteria inside that person dies and releases endotoxins that cause an inflammatory response with a severity degree contingent with the amount of endotoxins released which is contingent on the amount of Lyme bacteria killed. Veterans of herxheimer reactions usually know how to mentally prepare, deal, and address one, but to a person with chronic Lyme Disease who has recently started treatment, a herxheimer reaction can feel as if they’re dying.
Having emotions run wild during a first herxheimer reaction is completely normal because the body is responding to what is unknown to it, and what we don’t know as human beings we tend to fear, panic, and become extremely anxious about; this is the body protecting itself. As a result, the body’s stress response system will kick in, the fight or flight mode, with the flight part of that biological response evidently being impractical for this particular situation, and leaving the remaining option of fighting. In terms of a herxheimer reaction, fighting it should entail understanding more about it, learning the best ways to reduce the chances of having one, and knowing how to help reduce the severity of a herxheimer reaction if one happens to arise. Knowledge really is power here.
2. Government DISACKNOWLEDGMENT of chronic Lyme Disease
The job of government is to ensure the safety and well being of its citizens. Now imagine having a disease, an infection of some kind that affects nearly every anatomical aspect of the human body in such a way that debilitation is perpetual, but the government won’t acknowledge it. Well, no need to imagine such a scenario because this one is real. The infection is a persistent Borrelia Burgdorferi, or what is unofficially acknowledged by government health agencies as chronic Lyme Disease.
When excuses by government health agencies such as, ”More research needs to be done”, or “There isn’t enough science to support the existence of chronic Lyme Disease”, are really, “We’re being lazy and rather not probe into the potentially millions of ill citizens claiming to all suffer from the same imaginary and plethora of evidence supporting infection that destroys lives” in disguise. It isn't always the best move to rely entirely on the government for preserving every aspect chronic Lyme Disease can destroy in a person's life, but with an epidemic as large scale as chronic Lyme Disease is, at a minimum the government should acknowledge the existence of persistent Lyme Disease, and allow the physicians who are well qualified, state certified, and trained to treat the disease, be free of prosecution and license termination.
While there currently is traction in opening the government’s eyes to the reality of chronic Lyme Disease, democracy can be a long process that is filtered through self-interest and party-interest. But it can and does come through for its citizens so long as they continue to exploit their champions in government for chronic Lyme Disease, and exercise their first amendment right to petition the government for a redress of grievances, and to peacefully assemble and protest.
"People with chronic Lyme Disease have no idea when they’ll be completely recovered - not the slightest idea."
3. The inexplicable, cryptic, obscure, and bizarre symptoms
The symptoms people with chronic Lyme Disease experience fall into both territories of normal and really bizarre. Most people, even if they’ve never had Lyme Disease, understand what fatigue, pain, and headaches feel like, but try explaining to that same people that your whole body is buzzing or vibrating like a cell phone, or that it’s difficult for you to manufacture and apply certain emotions in their entireties for certain situations, you’re usually met with a dumbfounded face.
The more obscure symptoms of chronic Lyme Disease leave much of their identities and origins unknown to not only the people who don’t have Lyme and may potentially inquire about them, but the people who endure them day in and day out, and even the doctors who respectfully and honestly attempt to explain and reduce these symptoms as well.
A herxheimer reaction is the debilitating physical and mental state a person endures when the Lyme bacteria inside that person dies and releases endotoxins that cause an inflammatory response with a severity degree contingent with the amount of endotoxins released which is contingent on the amount of Lyme bacteria killed. Veterans of herxheimer reactions usually know how to mentally prepare, deal, and address one, but to a person with chronic Lyme Disease who has recently started treatment, a herxheimer reaction can feel as if they’re dying.
Having emotions run wild during a first herxheimer reaction is completely normal because the body is responding to what is unknown to it, and what we don’t know as human beings we tend to fear, panic, and become extremely anxious about; this is the body protecting itself. As a result, the body’s stress response system will kick in, the fight or flight mode, with the flight part of that biological response evidently being impractical for this particular situation, and leaving the remaining option of fighting. In terms of a herxheimer reaction, fighting it should entail understanding more about it, learning the best ways to reduce the chances of having one, and knowing how to help reduce the severity of a herxheimer reaction if one happens to arise. Knowledge really is power here.
2. Government DISACKNOWLEDGMENT of chronic Lyme Disease
The job of government is to ensure the safety and well being of its citizens. Now imagine having a disease, an infection of some kind that affects nearly every anatomical aspect of the human body in such a way that debilitation is perpetual, but the government won’t acknowledge it. Well, no need to imagine such a scenario because this one is real. The infection is a persistent Borrelia Burgdorferi, or what is unofficially acknowledged by government health agencies as chronic Lyme Disease.
When excuses by government health agencies such as, ”More research needs to be done”, or “There isn’t enough science to support the existence of chronic Lyme Disease”, are really, “We’re being lazy and rather not probe into the potentially millions of ill citizens claiming to all suffer from the same imaginary and plethora of evidence supporting infection that destroys lives” in disguise. It isn't always the best move to rely entirely on the government for preserving every aspect chronic Lyme Disease can destroy in a person's life, but with an epidemic as large scale as chronic Lyme Disease is, at a minimum the government should acknowledge the existence of persistent Lyme Disease, and allow the physicians who are well qualified, state certified, and trained to treat the disease, be free of prosecution and license termination.
While there currently is traction in opening the government’s eyes to the reality of chronic Lyme Disease, democracy can be a long process that is filtered through self-interest and party-interest. But it can and does come through for its citizens so long as they continue to exploit their champions in government for chronic Lyme Disease, and exercise their first amendment right to petition the government for a redress of grievances, and to peacefully assemble and protest.
"People with chronic Lyme Disease have no idea when they’ll be completely recovered - not the slightest idea."
3. The inexplicable, cryptic, obscure, and bizarre symptoms
The symptoms people with chronic Lyme Disease experience fall into both territories of normal and really bizarre. Most people, even if they’ve never had Lyme Disease, understand what fatigue, pain, and headaches feel like, but try explaining to that same people that your whole body is buzzing or vibrating like a cell phone, or that it’s difficult for you to manufacture and apply certain emotions in their entireties for certain situations, you’re usually met with a dumbfounded face.
The more obscure symptoms of chronic Lyme Disease leave much of their identities and origins unknown to not only the people who don’t have Lyme and may potentially inquire about them, but the people who endure them day in and day out, and even the doctors who respectfully and honestly attempt to explain and reduce these symptoms as well.
4. Not knowing how or when you’ll get better
The odds are good that if you live on planet Earth, you’ve had the common cold at least once in your life. But if you didn’t, the odds are good that you know not just one, but many who have. And by which ever source or experience you’ve attained knowledge about the common cold, part of that knowledge includes knowing that the virus responsible for the common cold usually won’t take more than a week to recover from with a contingency on relatively optimal immune health. Possessing this knowledge creates a certain type of subconscious calamity if you ever get the common cold as the odds are good you’ll likely be over it in about a week or so.
People with chronic Lyme Disease have no idea when they’ll be completely recovered - not the slightest idea. Sure, experience of people who have recovered from chronic Lyme have suggested that recovery can take up to a year and sometimes even more depending on so many other factors such as coinfections, toxin accumulation, stress factors, immune status and capability, and gene mutations to name a few. But no single treatment protocol for chronic Lyme Disease will work for every person afflicted with chronic Lyme because of some of the varying and essentially considerable factors mentioned above. It’s also important to note the large time lapse that likely occurs before a person with chronic Lyme Disease even reaches the knowledge that they even have chronic Lyme, and that some type of treatment protocol is almost always needed. The common cold is clinically diagnosed within minutes and the immune system more often than not takes care of it on its own.
Conclusion
And so life is full of challenges both large and small. They more often than not present themselves at times in a person's life when they least expect them, and are in the worst way prepared. But there is a great quote that states, "Difficult doesn't mean impossible." Chronic Lyme Disease may likely be the single worst and most difficult experience a person will encounter in their life with every possible road blocked, and any possible area or source of relief or salvation off limits. The objective is to never give up, and to never stop trying to find a way because in the words of Dr. Martin Luther King Jr., "Our lives begin to end the day we become silent about things that matter."
Because what matters to you as a person in this life is not dead, and even if it was, you always possess the ability to find new meaning and value. You likely forgot what means the most to you in this world, or maybe you remember, but it doesn't seem worth while to pursue. A constant endurance with a health challenge likely clouded your ability to see and pursue it, but just because you can't see something, doesn't mean it isn't there or isn't attainable. You just have to find another way to access it, because so long as your heart continues to beat, you possess every chance in the world to reclaim the happiness every person wants to obtain at their core. Move this will forward.
The odds are good that if you live on planet Earth, you’ve had the common cold at least once in your life. But if you didn’t, the odds are good that you know not just one, but many who have. And by which ever source or experience you’ve attained knowledge about the common cold, part of that knowledge includes knowing that the virus responsible for the common cold usually won’t take more than a week to recover from with a contingency on relatively optimal immune health. Possessing this knowledge creates a certain type of subconscious calamity if you ever get the common cold as the odds are good you’ll likely be over it in about a week or so.
People with chronic Lyme Disease have no idea when they’ll be completely recovered - not the slightest idea. Sure, experience of people who have recovered from chronic Lyme have suggested that recovery can take up to a year and sometimes even more depending on so many other factors such as coinfections, toxin accumulation, stress factors, immune status and capability, and gene mutations to name a few. But no single treatment protocol for chronic Lyme Disease will work for every person afflicted with chronic Lyme because of some of the varying and essentially considerable factors mentioned above. It’s also important to note the large time lapse that likely occurs before a person with chronic Lyme Disease even reaches the knowledge that they even have chronic Lyme, and that some type of treatment protocol is almost always needed. The common cold is clinically diagnosed within minutes and the immune system more often than not takes care of it on its own.
Conclusion
And so life is full of challenges both large and small. They more often than not present themselves at times in a person's life when they least expect them, and are in the worst way prepared. But there is a great quote that states, "Difficult doesn't mean impossible." Chronic Lyme Disease may likely be the single worst and most difficult experience a person will encounter in their life with every possible road blocked, and any possible area or source of relief or salvation off limits. The objective is to never give up, and to never stop trying to find a way because in the words of Dr. Martin Luther King Jr., "Our lives begin to end the day we become silent about things that matter."
Because what matters to you as a person in this life is not dead, and even if it was, you always possess the ability to find new meaning and value. You likely forgot what means the most to you in this world, or maybe you remember, but it doesn't seem worth while to pursue. A constant endurance with a health challenge likely clouded your ability to see and pursue it, but just because you can't see something, doesn't mean it isn't there or isn't attainable. You just have to find another way to access it, because so long as your heart continues to beat, you possess every chance in the world to reclaim the happiness every person wants to obtain at their core. Move this will forward.
Depersonalization and Derealization From Lyme Disease and Its Coinfection: A Perpetual Mental State of Apathy
For some, it is considered the worst symptom of chronic Lyme Disease and its coinfections. It is entirely a psychological symptom. And it is so incredibly difficult to describe, let alone understand, that even those with chronic Lyme Disease that suffer from depersonalization and/or derealization are unable to make the connection between what depersonlization and/or derealization is by text book definition, and the reality that the perpetual psychological state they're in is in fact depersonlization and/or derealization. It's very much like having a broken leg, experiencing all the symptoms of a broken leg, seeing and acknowledging that you have a broken leg, but not being able to identify it as a broken leg because you don't know what a broken leg it.
But the broken leg has the advantage to depersonalization and derealization a a symptom because someone, if not everyone, can come along and inform you that your leg is broken. It's a physical symptom that can be seen by everyone, and the common knowledge of what a broken leg is allows it to be identifiable by pretty much anyone with a brain stem. Depersonalization and derealization are psychological symptoms, so the only person that can truly observe this symptom is the person enduring it. And if the person enduring it has no knowledge of what they're enduring, not only will they continue to endure it and have lower odds of being able to treat it than someone who can identify their psychological state as depersonalization and/or derealization, they'll be without that inherent comfort, closure, or sense of relation or belonging that comes from being able to know
Describing depersonalization and/or derealization
It's important to know that a person enduring depersonalization and/or derealization is almost completely, if not entirely, perpetually apathetic. They lack nearly 100% of the time any interest, concern, and emotion for life's experience. Now what is interesting though is that when a person suffering from depersonalization and/or derealization is exposed to the direct source of emotional invocation, their perpetual apathy dwindles just a little, and the emotions from that experience are slightly conjured and able to be felt. They don't feel all the emotions of that experience like a normal person would, but enough emotions are manufactured that allow that person to not seem so inhuman or incapable of expressing compassion. Again this is only when a person suffering from depersonalization and/or derealization is exposed directly to the experience, the direct source of emotional elicitation.
I need an example to better understand
Of course you do! Depersonalization and/or derealization is is no way intuitive which means you shouldn't feel guilty or be hard on yourself for not being able to identity it whether you know someone who has it, or think you believe someone to have it, or you suffer from it yourself.
Look around. Find something you possess that you really treasure or hold great value and meaning with. It could really be anything you're surrounded by because we all have an emotional investment in everything around us, it's just the amount we've invested that differs with each object and experience. It's just obtaining an object with a greater level of invested emotions (i.e., value, meaning, and worth) that will allow you to understand this psychological symptom better. It could be a guitar if you're a musician, a letter from a friend or family member from long ago, or simply the television in your room. Now take that object and imagine a string running from that object to your head. That string is where all the value, meaning, worth, concern, interest, and enthusiasm (i.e., emotions) are exchanged between you and the object. Everything you feel for something whether it be the object you're looking at, or any experience, travels along this string. For people suffering from depersonalization and derealization, that string has been cut.
And for those who don't endure depersonalization and/or derealization, they can travel as far away from this object and still feel nearly 100% of the emotions they've generated from it. Their string is limitless. And because the string of a person with depersonalization and/or derealization is cut, they may only be able to feel a small window of emotions for that object when they're touching it, which compensates for the cut string, but the moment they release the object, the greater the distance they create between themselves and the object, the further in time a memory of an experience is, the greater they return to a near 100% state of apathy.
Here are some quotes to better facilitate an understanding of depersonalization and/or derealization:
“Factors that tend to diminish symptoms are comforting interpersonal interactions, intense physical or emotional stimulation, and relaxation.”“...going through the motions of life but not experiencing it or participating in it”
“Depersonalization is a particular type of dissociation involving a disrupted integration of self-perceptions
with the sense of self, so that individuals experiencing depersonalization
are in a subjective state of feeling estranged, detached or disconnected from their own being.”
What causes depersonalization and derealization?
Well what we know is that depersonalization and derealization are psychological symptoms that people with chronic Lyme Disease and/or coinfections can experience. However people can induce depersonalization and derealization through other sources, but what is it about chronic Lyme Disease that allows these mental symptoms to manifest?
One possible explanation for depersonalization and derealization is that its manifestation is not the doing of Lyme Disease or its coinfections, but the doing of the brain itself; that the brain is entirely responsible for inducing these psychological states, but that it has good reason to do so. It is partly hypothesized, though not scientifically proven, that depersonalization and derealization is an evolutionary tactic for extreme endurance. A possible defense mechanism initiated by the brain to allow a person to continuously be subjected to what would otherwise be extreme conditions and circumstances for sustaining life. And that the depersonalizing of the person will give them an upper hand in enduring a continuously extreme and stressful environment, but at the same time achieving the brain's intended goal of perpetuating survival.
The emotions involved in the experience of enduring a chronic illness and everything that it encompasses can be too extreme for the mind. By forfeiting, halting, and suspending its ability to generate emotions, the part of the brain responsible for rationality and reasoning can function without being compromised by extreme emotions. And by allowing the part of the brain that reasons to operate without interference by emotions, a person will greatly increase their odds of obtaining solutions for their troubling state and debilitating circumstances of Lyme, in turn, allowing them to heal and achieving the ultimate goal of the brain, preserving life so that genes can be passed on.
Of course this is just one plausible explanation for depersonalization and derealization. Another proposed hypothesis is that toxins from microbial invaders, and the microbial invaders themselves, are interfering with nerve relapses in the brain. While this could be a contributor, it doesn't seem to be the sole cause because while emotions are perpetually hindered with depersonalization and derealization, other parts of the brain are still functioning at somewhat reasonably operable levels.
How do you treat or deal with
depersonalization and derealization?
As it has been said many times before, the brain is usually the last physiological part of the human body to heal from Lyme Disease and its coinfections. What this means is that you likely won't experience a natural relief from depersonalization and/or derealization until the infection(s) is gone. However, as healing progresses, the impact and intensity of depersonalization and derealization dwindles and dissipates, so it can be used as a gauge to determine healing progression.
While at times it can be very enticing to allow depersonalization and derealization to keep you from participating in life's events and experience, don't let it govern your decisions all the time. Yes, there will be times where it has the upper hand and you'll have to give it to its oppression, but remember that exposing yourself directly to life's experiences can allow you to partly suppress the apathy that comes from depersonalization and derealization. Direct exposure to the source of emotional invocation of experiences, people, and happenings will allow you to not only feel somewhat alive, but remind you that you're still capable of feeling, and that you're not as far gone as you may have lead yourself to believe.
Very little information exists on treating depersonalization and derealization medicinally, but if any undiscovered knowledge exists, it can be posted below.
It's important to remember!Depersonalization can make it seems like a person doesn't really care about anything and everything. And it's true, they very likely don't! This includes important dates, traditions, best friends, close family, and experiences and happenings in life that would otherwise invoke an emotional response from a person that doesn't suffer from depersonalization and derealization. This doesn't mean that they don't want to care, or that they aren't conscious of their inability to care or express concern, interest, enthusiasm, etc, but that they can't to the extent and level that they once were able to as a person who did not suffer from the effects of chronic Lyme Disease and its coinfections.
For some, it is considered the worst symptom of chronic Lyme Disease and its coinfections. It is entirely a psychological symptom. And it is so incredibly difficult to describe, let alone understand, that even those with chronic Lyme Disease that suffer from depersonalization and/or derealization are unable to make the connection between what depersonlization and/or derealization is by text book definition, and the reality that the perpetual psychological state they're in is in fact depersonlization and/or derealization. It's very much like having a broken leg, experiencing all the symptoms of a broken leg, seeing and acknowledging that you have a broken leg, but not being able to identify it as a broken leg because you don't know what a broken leg it.
But the broken leg has the advantage to depersonalization and derealization a a symptom because someone, if not everyone, can come along and inform you that your leg is broken. It's a physical symptom that can be seen by everyone, and the common knowledge of what a broken leg is allows it to be identifiable by pretty much anyone with a brain stem. Depersonalization and derealization are psychological symptoms, so the only person that can truly observe this symptom is the person enduring it. And if the person enduring it has no knowledge of what they're enduring, not only will they continue to endure it and have lower odds of being able to treat it than someone who can identify their psychological state as depersonalization and/or derealization, they'll be without that inherent comfort, closure, or sense of relation or belonging that comes from being able to know
Describing depersonalization and/or derealization
It's important to know that a person enduring depersonalization and/or derealization is almost completely, if not entirely, perpetually apathetic. They lack nearly 100% of the time any interest, concern, and emotion for life's experience. Now what is interesting though is that when a person suffering from depersonalization and/or derealization is exposed to the direct source of emotional invocation, their perpetual apathy dwindles just a little, and the emotions from that experience are slightly conjured and able to be felt. They don't feel all the emotions of that experience like a normal person would, but enough emotions are manufactured that allow that person to not seem so inhuman or incapable of expressing compassion. Again this is only when a person suffering from depersonalization and/or derealization is exposed directly to the experience, the direct source of emotional elicitation.
I need an example to better understand
Of course you do! Depersonalization and/or derealization is is no way intuitive which means you shouldn't feel guilty or be hard on yourself for not being able to identity it whether you know someone who has it, or think you believe someone to have it, or you suffer from it yourself.
Look around. Find something you possess that you really treasure or hold great value and meaning with. It could really be anything you're surrounded by because we all have an emotional investment in everything around us, it's just the amount we've invested that differs with each object and experience. It's just obtaining an object with a greater level of invested emotions (i.e., value, meaning, and worth) that will allow you to understand this psychological symptom better. It could be a guitar if you're a musician, a letter from a friend or family member from long ago, or simply the television in your room. Now take that object and imagine a string running from that object to your head. That string is where all the value, meaning, worth, concern, interest, and enthusiasm (i.e., emotions) are exchanged between you and the object. Everything you feel for something whether it be the object you're looking at, or any experience, travels along this string. For people suffering from depersonalization and derealization, that string has been cut.
And for those who don't endure depersonalization and/or derealization, they can travel as far away from this object and still feel nearly 100% of the emotions they've generated from it. Their string is limitless. And because the string of a person with depersonalization and/or derealization is cut, they may only be able to feel a small window of emotions for that object when they're touching it, which compensates for the cut string, but the moment they release the object, the greater the distance they create between themselves and the object, the further in time a memory of an experience is, the greater they return to a near 100% state of apathy.
Here are some quotes to better facilitate an understanding of depersonalization and/or derealization:
“Factors that tend to diminish symptoms are comforting interpersonal interactions, intense physical or emotional stimulation, and relaxation.”“...going through the motions of life but not experiencing it or participating in it”
“Depersonalization is a particular type of dissociation involving a disrupted integration of self-perceptions
with the sense of self, so that individuals experiencing depersonalization
are in a subjective state of feeling estranged, detached or disconnected from their own being.”
What causes depersonalization and derealization?
Well what we know is that depersonalization and derealization are psychological symptoms that people with chronic Lyme Disease and/or coinfections can experience. However people can induce depersonalization and derealization through other sources, but what is it about chronic Lyme Disease that allows these mental symptoms to manifest?
One possible explanation for depersonalization and derealization is that its manifestation is not the doing of Lyme Disease or its coinfections, but the doing of the brain itself; that the brain is entirely responsible for inducing these psychological states, but that it has good reason to do so. It is partly hypothesized, though not scientifically proven, that depersonalization and derealization is an evolutionary tactic for extreme endurance. A possible defense mechanism initiated by the brain to allow a person to continuously be subjected to what would otherwise be extreme conditions and circumstances for sustaining life. And that the depersonalizing of the person will give them an upper hand in enduring a continuously extreme and stressful environment, but at the same time achieving the brain's intended goal of perpetuating survival.
The emotions involved in the experience of enduring a chronic illness and everything that it encompasses can be too extreme for the mind. By forfeiting, halting, and suspending its ability to generate emotions, the part of the brain responsible for rationality and reasoning can function without being compromised by extreme emotions. And by allowing the part of the brain that reasons to operate without interference by emotions, a person will greatly increase their odds of obtaining solutions for their troubling state and debilitating circumstances of Lyme, in turn, allowing them to heal and achieving the ultimate goal of the brain, preserving life so that genes can be passed on.
Of course this is just one plausible explanation for depersonalization and derealization. Another proposed hypothesis is that toxins from microbial invaders, and the microbial invaders themselves, are interfering with nerve relapses in the brain. While this could be a contributor, it doesn't seem to be the sole cause because while emotions are perpetually hindered with depersonalization and derealization, other parts of the brain are still functioning at somewhat reasonably operable levels.
How do you treat or deal with
depersonalization and derealization?
As it has been said many times before, the brain is usually the last physiological part of the human body to heal from Lyme Disease and its coinfections. What this means is that you likely won't experience a natural relief from depersonalization and/or derealization until the infection(s) is gone. However, as healing progresses, the impact and intensity of depersonalization and derealization dwindles and dissipates, so it can be used as a gauge to determine healing progression.
While at times it can be very enticing to allow depersonalization and derealization to keep you from participating in life's events and experience, don't let it govern your decisions all the time. Yes, there will be times where it has the upper hand and you'll have to give it to its oppression, but remember that exposing yourself directly to life's experiences can allow you to partly suppress the apathy that comes from depersonalization and derealization. Direct exposure to the source of emotional invocation of experiences, people, and happenings will allow you to not only feel somewhat alive, but remind you that you're still capable of feeling, and that you're not as far gone as you may have lead yourself to believe.
Very little information exists on treating depersonalization and derealization medicinally, but if any undiscovered knowledge exists, it can be posted below.
It's important to remember!Depersonalization can make it seems like a person doesn't really care about anything and everything. And it's true, they very likely don't! This includes important dates, traditions, best friends, close family, and experiences and happenings in life that would otherwise invoke an emotional response from a person that doesn't suffer from depersonalization and derealization. This doesn't mean that they don't want to care, or that they aren't conscious of their inability to care or express concern, interest, enthusiasm, etc, but that they can't to the extent and level that they once were able to as a person who did not suffer from the effects of chronic Lyme Disease and its coinfections.
Inside the Mind of a Person With Chronic Lyme Disease: The Lost and Distress of Great Psychological Qualities and Workings
If not presenting any empirical, physical symptoms of chronic Lyme Disease is troubling enough to convey a conviction, then any attempt to portray the symptoms of the mind of a person enduring chronic Lyme Disease will be fortunate enough to even be just considered. For a person who has never had chronic Lyme Disease, their attempt at understanding the state of mind of those with chronic Lyme Disease hardly becomes intuitive. And without the experience of fighting chronic Lyme Disease themselves, they could never truly understand, regardless of how sincere, honest, and persistent their attempt to do so is. It's just the nature of the reality. For those without chronic Lyme Disease, the closest form of relation they can grant a person with chronic Lyme Disease is through the acceptance and acknowledgement of their mental distress, and not an unachievable understanding that can only be found through experience.
While not everyone who has chronic Lyme Disease will experience these psychological distortions and disruptions, most with chronic Lyme Disease will experience all at one point or another throughout their struggle with Lyme. Some will experience these symptoms to greater extents with more consistency than others and vice versa. And while these are not all of the psychological distresses a person with chronic Lyme Disease can experience, they're some of the most common they can endure at any given time.
1. Loss of compassion and sympathy
Compassion is a beautiful trait expressed by the human species to not only members of its own species, but to other species as well. In the face of hurt and suffrage, a person may receive comfort and sympathy from another. Such is this social beauty that a situation of distress will have less of a negative impact on a person than before the compassion was applied.
Many times a person with chronic Lyme Disease will come off as if they don't care about what a person without chronic Lyme Disease would normally care about or for. While the behavior they display comes off as rude, selfish, or a great lacking of compassion and sympathy, the truth is that they've lost their ability to care. And it's not because they choose not to care or express compassion, but rather that the part of the brain designed to generate and execute these valuable emotions are under the influence of a bacteria, toxins, and inflammation.
In fact, many times those with chronic Lyme Disease find themselves in a situation where compassion or sympathy is called upon or appropriate, and not only are they unable to provide it, they are aware that they can't. It's almost like an emotional paralysis, in that they know and want to feel compassion or sympathy, but no matter how much they desire or pine to do so, they're unable to move the emotions. And to disconnect the person even more from the moment, they may not even feel ashamed of their abnormal behavior for the same reason they can't console.
While this reality itself seems rather strange and hard to grasp, when compared to how most people behave when they consume the right amount of alcohol, the two come off as polar opposites. A person who drinks alcohol is more prone and likely to express how they really feel about situations or people than had they not consumed alcohol. The opposite is true in those with chronic Lyme Disease as the bacteria's impact serves as the influence now. As a person who drinks alcohol is more likely to express what they feel, a person under the influence of chronic Lyme Disease may be more prone to express what they don't feel. And what they sometimes don't feel is compassion and sympathy regardless of how serious of situation is presented. Whether a person under the influence of Lyme or alcohol is aware of their unusual behavior at the time
2. loss of conscience and morality
Who is to say what is right or wrong? These decisions are made by what either a person feels inside, their conscience, what they have been told by others, morality, or a combination of the two. As generations pass, what we collectively as a species consider to be a wrongful act or behavior, can become an act that is no longer considered to be of wrong doing. Even more interesting is that each individual person, through experience, develops their own understanding of what is considered right and wrong in the eyes of society, and may change many times throughout a lifetime.
But then it really doesn't matter what is right or wrong, it's how each individual person reaches their own satisfaction in a situation. Because what one person may feel is right, another person may feel wrong about, but these two people will both reach a satisfaction despite the difference in how each achieved it. A person enduring chronic Lyme Disease may have a day in which they mentally feeling nothing at all (i.e., floating). They're emotionally numb which means that satisfaction or pleasure of any kind from any source will likely not be felt in their mind. This difficult and challenging mental state a person with chronic Lyme Disease endures can thus give the illusion to others, though temporary, that they have lost their sense of morality or completely lack any conscience.
"A person who can no longer emotionally feel, will not know what they feel. And when a person doesn't feel for anything, they can not develop any value and meaning in what they try to do."
3. Loss of value, purpose, meaning, and worth
There is a simple, but encompassing quote by Professor Stephen Hawking - "Work gives you meaning and purpose and life is empty without it." We as humans inherently desire to feel worth, of great value, relevant, and significant to some extent. These abstract manifestations are the result of what we do in our lives, the purposes we fulfill and don't. But it is the purpose itself that is subject to change throughout life, and as a result, the value and meaning we found for the longest time in one purpose, may no longer be obtainable as time passes. What determines how important or worthy we feel depends on our own individual perception of our doings and accomplishments.
This is exactly why people with chronic Lyme Disease may feel irrelevant, worthless, insignificant the longer they endure the disease. Before contracting chronic Lyme Disease, a person likely has many purposes (e.g., school, work, hobby, etc). Some purposes were found to be significant or appealing than others, but nonetheless, purpose existed. And as a result of these purposes, value, worth, and significance were generated in the mind to varying degrees. With the presence of chronic Lyme Disease taking hold, the odds are very good that the purposes a person never questioned the certainty of, were unwillingly abandoned due to extreme and unprecedented physical, social, emotional, and mental deterioration. And without these purposes, no longer may a person with chronic Lyme Disease feel any value or significance in their existence.
4. Loss of identity
Who are you? Roger Daltrey asked this question many many times throughout his life, and even to this day he continues. But as many times as he's asked the question, have you ever been able to respond with a satisfying answer? Have you ever been able to truly define yourself? While the act of conveying your constitution to others is no easy task, every human being knows who they truly are inside. But what is it about us that allows us to identify our own self?
Through what we know and do, we develop an identity to which we become familiar and associate ourselves with. And because what we know and do constantly changes throughout our lives, we must logically deduce that our identity does as well. However, most changes in what we do and know are small and leave no apparent trace, nor do we ever really give them any conscious acknowledgement. Our identity changes just a little bit every day, but the change is so subtle. It isn't obvious we become a different person until the passing of say 10 years, or any large amount of time that makes it known, that allows you to look back and compare yourself to what you used to know and do, to what you now know and do. Much in the same way that you'd notice how much a person has physically changed if you haven't seen them in a while, as opposed to not noticing their physical changes had you seen them every day.
A person who finds themselves at the mercy of chronic Lyme Disease may wake up one day and not know who they are. It's not that they don't who they are in the sense of complete memory deletion or amnesia , but completely in the sense that they remember who they once were and are no longer; and even the uncertainty of who they are now. The change to the identity of a person with chronic Lyme Disease is in no way subtle because nearly everything that constitutes their identity, what they know and do, has been completely removed from them. By unwillingly leaving purposes (i.e., what a person does) behind because of chronic Lyme Disease, the grand alternation to their identity has begun. And because it's so grand, it becomes noticeable almost immediately. Opposition may arise in the beginning to the abandonment of their purposes, but eventually acceptance infiltrates the mind and the resistance yields to Lyme.
A person with chronic Lyme Disease may have lost their sense of purpose in the beginning of contracting Lyme, but the loss of what they know usually comes later on. It comes in the form of memory loss in which a person will not be able to recall certain details of their life that allowed association to an identity, and floating, which can remove a person's entire ability to feel any type of emotion, despite an ever present knowledge of how they once felt towards someone or something. It even gets worse because any attempt by a person enduring Lyme Disease to reconstruct their identity also becomes hindered by the Lyme itself. A person who can no longer emotionally feel, will not know what they feel. And when a person doesn't feel for anything, they can not develop any value and meaning in what they try to do. What they do is then pushed aside, and as a result, no identity, if any at all, is reconstituted for the duration of the disease's impact.
In conclusion
When a bacteria as powerful and highly evolved as Borrelia Burgdorferi (i.e., the bacteria responsible for chronic Lyme Disease) enters the body, a biological hijacking occurs to a degree that which no man or woman could ever be prepared for. Disruptions of both the physical and mental workings of the body leave the person enduring, in great awe and astoundment.
But as strange, ineffable, and unfamiliar as the symptoms of the mind are, they are temporary. The workings of the human mind will be restored as healing progresses from chronic Lyme Disease. The progress won't be sudden or immediately noticeable, but very much gradual. Patience is required at levels never sought out before, and persistence, though it may take great hits throughout the battle, must remain at all times. Sometimes in life we stumble upon inconveniences; some more grand than others. But what doesn't change is the ever present and available great will every person possesses to move forward and beyond.
If not presenting any empirical, physical symptoms of chronic Lyme Disease is troubling enough to convey a conviction, then any attempt to portray the symptoms of the mind of a person enduring chronic Lyme Disease will be fortunate enough to even be just considered. For a person who has never had chronic Lyme Disease, their attempt at understanding the state of mind of those with chronic Lyme Disease hardly becomes intuitive. And without the experience of fighting chronic Lyme Disease themselves, they could never truly understand, regardless of how sincere, honest, and persistent their attempt to do so is. It's just the nature of the reality. For those without chronic Lyme Disease, the closest form of relation they can grant a person with chronic Lyme Disease is through the acceptance and acknowledgement of their mental distress, and not an unachievable understanding that can only be found through experience.
While not everyone who has chronic Lyme Disease will experience these psychological distortions and disruptions, most with chronic Lyme Disease will experience all at one point or another throughout their struggle with Lyme. Some will experience these symptoms to greater extents with more consistency than others and vice versa. And while these are not all of the psychological distresses a person with chronic Lyme Disease can experience, they're some of the most common they can endure at any given time.
1. Loss of compassion and sympathy
Compassion is a beautiful trait expressed by the human species to not only members of its own species, but to other species as well. In the face of hurt and suffrage, a person may receive comfort and sympathy from another. Such is this social beauty that a situation of distress will have less of a negative impact on a person than before the compassion was applied.
Many times a person with chronic Lyme Disease will come off as if they don't care about what a person without chronic Lyme Disease would normally care about or for. While the behavior they display comes off as rude, selfish, or a great lacking of compassion and sympathy, the truth is that they've lost their ability to care. And it's not because they choose not to care or express compassion, but rather that the part of the brain designed to generate and execute these valuable emotions are under the influence of a bacteria, toxins, and inflammation.
In fact, many times those with chronic Lyme Disease find themselves in a situation where compassion or sympathy is called upon or appropriate, and not only are they unable to provide it, they are aware that they can't. It's almost like an emotional paralysis, in that they know and want to feel compassion or sympathy, but no matter how much they desire or pine to do so, they're unable to move the emotions. And to disconnect the person even more from the moment, they may not even feel ashamed of their abnormal behavior for the same reason they can't console.
While this reality itself seems rather strange and hard to grasp, when compared to how most people behave when they consume the right amount of alcohol, the two come off as polar opposites. A person who drinks alcohol is more prone and likely to express how they really feel about situations or people than had they not consumed alcohol. The opposite is true in those with chronic Lyme Disease as the bacteria's impact serves as the influence now. As a person who drinks alcohol is more likely to express what they feel, a person under the influence of chronic Lyme Disease may be more prone to express what they don't feel. And what they sometimes don't feel is compassion and sympathy regardless of how serious of situation is presented. Whether a person under the influence of Lyme or alcohol is aware of their unusual behavior at the time
2. loss of conscience and morality
Who is to say what is right or wrong? These decisions are made by what either a person feels inside, their conscience, what they have been told by others, morality, or a combination of the two. As generations pass, what we collectively as a species consider to be a wrongful act or behavior, can become an act that is no longer considered to be of wrong doing. Even more interesting is that each individual person, through experience, develops their own understanding of what is considered right and wrong in the eyes of society, and may change many times throughout a lifetime.
But then it really doesn't matter what is right or wrong, it's how each individual person reaches their own satisfaction in a situation. Because what one person may feel is right, another person may feel wrong about, but these two people will both reach a satisfaction despite the difference in how each achieved it. A person enduring chronic Lyme Disease may have a day in which they mentally feeling nothing at all (i.e., floating). They're emotionally numb which means that satisfaction or pleasure of any kind from any source will likely not be felt in their mind. This difficult and challenging mental state a person with chronic Lyme Disease endures can thus give the illusion to others, though temporary, that they have lost their sense of morality or completely lack any conscience.
"A person who can no longer emotionally feel, will not know what they feel. And when a person doesn't feel for anything, they can not develop any value and meaning in what they try to do."
3. Loss of value, purpose, meaning, and worth
There is a simple, but encompassing quote by Professor Stephen Hawking - "Work gives you meaning and purpose and life is empty without it." We as humans inherently desire to feel worth, of great value, relevant, and significant to some extent. These abstract manifestations are the result of what we do in our lives, the purposes we fulfill and don't. But it is the purpose itself that is subject to change throughout life, and as a result, the value and meaning we found for the longest time in one purpose, may no longer be obtainable as time passes. What determines how important or worthy we feel depends on our own individual perception of our doings and accomplishments.
This is exactly why people with chronic Lyme Disease may feel irrelevant, worthless, insignificant the longer they endure the disease. Before contracting chronic Lyme Disease, a person likely has many purposes (e.g., school, work, hobby, etc). Some purposes were found to be significant or appealing than others, but nonetheless, purpose existed. And as a result of these purposes, value, worth, and significance were generated in the mind to varying degrees. With the presence of chronic Lyme Disease taking hold, the odds are very good that the purposes a person never questioned the certainty of, were unwillingly abandoned due to extreme and unprecedented physical, social, emotional, and mental deterioration. And without these purposes, no longer may a person with chronic Lyme Disease feel any value or significance in their existence.
4. Loss of identity
Who are you? Roger Daltrey asked this question many many times throughout his life, and even to this day he continues. But as many times as he's asked the question, have you ever been able to respond with a satisfying answer? Have you ever been able to truly define yourself? While the act of conveying your constitution to others is no easy task, every human being knows who they truly are inside. But what is it about us that allows us to identify our own self?
Through what we know and do, we develop an identity to which we become familiar and associate ourselves with. And because what we know and do constantly changes throughout our lives, we must logically deduce that our identity does as well. However, most changes in what we do and know are small and leave no apparent trace, nor do we ever really give them any conscious acknowledgement. Our identity changes just a little bit every day, but the change is so subtle. It isn't obvious we become a different person until the passing of say 10 years, or any large amount of time that makes it known, that allows you to look back and compare yourself to what you used to know and do, to what you now know and do. Much in the same way that you'd notice how much a person has physically changed if you haven't seen them in a while, as opposed to not noticing their physical changes had you seen them every day.
A person who finds themselves at the mercy of chronic Lyme Disease may wake up one day and not know who they are. It's not that they don't who they are in the sense of complete memory deletion or amnesia , but completely in the sense that they remember who they once were and are no longer; and even the uncertainty of who they are now. The change to the identity of a person with chronic Lyme Disease is in no way subtle because nearly everything that constitutes their identity, what they know and do, has been completely removed from them. By unwillingly leaving purposes (i.e., what a person does) behind because of chronic Lyme Disease, the grand alternation to their identity has begun. And because it's so grand, it becomes noticeable almost immediately. Opposition may arise in the beginning to the abandonment of their purposes, but eventually acceptance infiltrates the mind and the resistance yields to Lyme.
A person with chronic Lyme Disease may have lost their sense of purpose in the beginning of contracting Lyme, but the loss of what they know usually comes later on. It comes in the form of memory loss in which a person will not be able to recall certain details of their life that allowed association to an identity, and floating, which can remove a person's entire ability to feel any type of emotion, despite an ever present knowledge of how they once felt towards someone or something. It even gets worse because any attempt by a person enduring Lyme Disease to reconstruct their identity also becomes hindered by the Lyme itself. A person who can no longer emotionally feel, will not know what they feel. And when a person doesn't feel for anything, they can not develop any value and meaning in what they try to do. What they do is then pushed aside, and as a result, no identity, if any at all, is reconstituted for the duration of the disease's impact.
In conclusion
When a bacteria as powerful and highly evolved as Borrelia Burgdorferi (i.e., the bacteria responsible for chronic Lyme Disease) enters the body, a biological hijacking occurs to a degree that which no man or woman could ever be prepared for. Disruptions of both the physical and mental workings of the body leave the person enduring, in great awe and astoundment.
But as strange, ineffable, and unfamiliar as the symptoms of the mind are, they are temporary. The workings of the human mind will be restored as healing progresses from chronic Lyme Disease. The progress won't be sudden or immediately noticeable, but very much gradual. Patience is required at levels never sought out before, and persistence, though it may take great hits throughout the battle, must remain at all times. Sometimes in life we stumble upon inconveniences; some more grand than others. But what doesn't change is the ever present and available great will every person possesses to move forward and beyond.
Dreams appear to remain inaccessible to Lyme Disease. The subconscious mind may be reserving parts of memory that were thought to be gone for good
Imagine only being able to access your memory while asleep. Imagine being reinvoked with the emotions of people, places, and experiences from the past only while dreaming. Imagine only being able to reminisce about moments from the past in a dream, only to feel nostalgic when you awaken. It sounds like a great plot for a science fiction novel, but what it is for many enduring Lyme Disease is reality. A quaint and bizarre psychological phenomenon leaving many who experience it, to contemplate and question its strange existence.
Our conscious and awakened state is where we as humans make decisions, and develops understandings and acceptances for our lives, or what we perceive and generally concur or agree upon as reality. But of course, reality may just be electric impulses in the brain, but that's another topic - or is it? We'll address this possible correlation later.
So it is the conscious state of the human mind that Lyme Disease has almost completely hijacked, but what is meant by such a statement? Those with Lyme Disease may know immediately what the statement insinuates, but for those who are unsure, be open-minded to this explicit reality of many who endure Chronic Lyme Disease. The presence of the Lyme bacteria within the body has an extremely heavy and strong influence on the brain's functions. And by influence we mean that memory radically fades and becomes inaccessible throughout the ordeal of Chronic Lyme Disease, at least while awake. The people a person has known, places they've been, experiences they've had, become forgotten, or nearly impossible to recall. They unwillingly continue to remain disconnected from the world emotionally, identities becomes completely dismantled, and life itself appears surreal or dream-like more so than not. And because of the nature of this psychological existence, in that it lingers for nearly the entire experience of having Chronic Lyme Disease, a natural tendency gives way to the notion or belief that it will never end. And until it ends, an illusion is created within the mind that this conscious state is permanent. The strange part is that all of this occurs only in a conscious or awakened state.
What is incredibly interesting and baffling is that everything that occurs within a conscious, hijacked state from Chronic Lyme Disease in regards to this phenomenon, is lacking in presence in dreams. Through dreams, those enduring Chronic Lyme Disease are reintroduced to feelings and emotions that not only haven't been felt since Lyme took hold, but thought were gone forever. Not only are people remembered in great detail, but also the specific emotions that were felt for them in the conscious or non-dreaming state. Identities are reintroduced as the knowledge a person has attained, and opinions they have developed throughout their life, are unearthed and presented once more. Such dreams are convincing enough to suggest specific constituents from the past, that at the time, were deemed by the brain to be important enough to be saved for future reference, are in fact still in possession. The memories haven't disappeared, nor were they deleted from the mind. They're just currently inaccessible at free will in the conscious mind, but sometimes make their presence known in dreams. It's almost as if Lyme Disease can't penetrate or access the subconscious mind. Dreams are untouchable.
"It's almost as if the brain has downloaded, if you will,
everything that you've ever consciously absorbed
throughout your life, and stored it in a secret,
hidden area from Lyme's touch.."
It's interesting to conceive that the bacteria for Chronic Lyme Disease is so powerful, it has the ability to hijack and affect nearly every part of the human body - except for one. The subconscious state, or dreaming state a person has may be the only component immediately available left untouched by Chronic Lyme Disease. A portal, if you will, into what life was once like before Lyme Disease took over. An indication that the brain has not lost, nor forgotten, the critical information that slowly molded the person that would perpetually become. That the information believed to now be gone for good, is in fact still there, and awaiting for its chance to be exploited through a conscious state once more.
As strange as this phenomenon is, it leaves a profound revelation, impression, and understanding for some with Lyme when they awaken, that not all, nor everything, is completely lost just yet. They're immediately reminded of what they were once a part of. A sense of belonging becomes present, but only for a short period of time until the effects of Lyme Disease take hold of a person's conscious state for another day.
But why does such a phenomenon occur in the first place? Protection of information? Coping mechanism? An instinctive effort to remove distractions from the conscious mind so that it may dedicate entirely its ability, and extreme desire, to removing Lyme Disease? It's almost as if the brain has downloaded, if you will, everything that you've ever consciously absorbed throughout your life, and stored it in a secret, hidden area from Lyme's touch and influence; being accessible only in dreams, and keeping it off limits to the conscious state until the threat of Lyme is gone and completely wiped away.
Or maybe there's no hidden agenda at all, but just the result of impeded and disrupted nerve impulses in the brain. Our reality, possibly constituted from just complex nerve impulses in the brain, becomes distorted by Lyme, creating the derealization and depersonalization feeling many with Lyme become well acquainted with. The experience itself may provide minimal and weak evidence, but nonetheless evidence, unique to just specific individuals, that what we assume to be real is just electrical impulses in the brain.
Though the purpose of such a strange psychological phenomenon may not be explicit or clear to the conscious mind, we know that the brain's information currently inaccessible to the conscious state, but sometimes accessible in dreams, can become the prevailing conscious state once more. As healing of Chronic Lyme Disease progresses, information once available to the conscious state at all times becomes gradually, but arbitrarily reintegrated into a person's awakened mind, and available once more for the conscious state to exploit - no longer remaining just a dream for those with Chronic Lyme Disease.
Remember the Normal: Never Lose Sight of What You Once Were and Will Become
You've been battling Lyme Disease now for months, or possibly many years, but to you it feels as though it's been forever. The fight has gone on for so long, that you've long since forgotten what it's like to feel normal; to be without Lyme. But after dealing with Lyme for such an extended period of time, and existing in its nearly constant debilitating state, it becomes the new normal. When something becomes the normal, we no longer question, or rarely dwell upon its existence in our lives. It's only when something is introduced into our lives that we question its presence.
In the beginning days of your Lyme Disease's manifestation, you were subjected to abnormal circumstances. If you can recall your state of mind, strange symptoms appeared both physically and mentally; symptoms that you likely never experienced before. Though it was not normal, it had yet to become the normal because the symptom's presence in your life was still young. Very little time was spent with them, and their impact on your life wasn't that big of a deal, yet. As time would pass, the symptoms would grow older, and begin to mature, which means they ended up hanging around, and the impact that which they would leave on your body grew to substantially debilitating levels. The transition from one normal to another would begin to take place, without any say or do from you.
It's almost as if the body naturally develops its normal based on the immediate circumstances it has been dealt, but why would the body learn to accept its newly found normal molded by Lyme Disease? It's not a normal a person would pine to remain, or lead their life through. It must be that this process of acclimating to a new normal is inherent, and occurs without any conscious say or do from the person under going the transition.
But is there any wrong about having Lyme Disease become the new normal? What purpose does developing a new normal serve for a person in the first place? To answer the first question, we must answer the latter, and based upon reasoning, survival might be an appropriate answer. Spending time and energy questioning a prospectively new normal serves a great purpose in the beginning, in that information is attained and an appropriate response can be administered. It's a survival mechanism; one that aims to redevelop circumstances that are suitable for life to continue on without harm or threat. In the beginning, Lyme Disease was very strange and bizarre, and you didn't know how to deal with it. So naturally, you opened your eyes and ears, observed what Lyme Disease had begun to perform with your life, and as a result, you were able to respond effectively with treatment, tests, diet, reasoning, etc. All solutions you innately developed and conjured in order to subconsciously sustain your life (i.e., the physical and mental challenges Lyme possessed).
"There exists great benefits through every normal we experience in life. You just have to know, not where, but how to look."
So if developing a new normal is a possible survival mechanism our minds deploy, then there can't be anything wrong with the process, right? Wrong! Our bodies are constantly developing new normals through every small change we experience in life. A good portion of our lives consists of people, places, and activities that we are all familiar with - the normal. It is only when new information is introduced into our lives, and to our brains, that we develop a new normal. What may surprise you is that this happens every day, but to a small and subtle degree it occurs. The normal is ever changing, but because the degree at which change is introduced is so small, it goes unnoticed. When change becomes too great for the human mind in a short period of time, this is when it becomes blatantly obvious that the normal is being challenged to change, and an immediate human response is to resist and question.
Resistance may work in the beginning, but as time passes, it ultimately loses the fight to change, and depending on how you've consciously decided to perceive the new normal the change has left you with, it can either work for or against you. Those enduring Lyme Disease had no choice but to give in to the new normal, and there is nothing wrong with that! So where is the wrong in this whole process? Well, the wrong isn't in accepting the new normal Lyme Disease has yielded us, the wrong is in that we unintentionally forget the normal we were once a part of, and hope to reclaim in the future.
And it isn't even that forgetting the normal we all hope to be a part of one day is wrong, it's the effect of this whole process that produces the illusion that we will never experience it again. And it's true, there is no need to look to the past because the normal we were once a part of will never exist again, so we look to the future. We think about the new normal we hope greatly to become a part of once Lyme Disease has passed, but this is where your current normal is challenged. While you may consciously tell yourself that you will one day be a part of this normal after you've vanquished Lyme Disease, does there not exist a feeling inside that tells you you won't; a very strong and overwhelming assurance that you could never possibly leave this normal behind? It seems almost incredibly easier to give in to this feeling, rather than your conscious understanding that you will leave this normal behind one day. But don't despair because this feeling is completely normal! This feeling you perceive is the normal - your current normal! Just as when you didn't have Lyme Disease, you never believed you would one day be a part of the normal you are now. This same process works in the exact same manner now. It's hard to believe that you'll one day be a part of a normal that is 100% deficient of Lyme, but what has history shown? It has shown clearly that we can become part of a normal that we currently can't conceive.
All with Lyme Disease share the common yearning for the normal they once had before Lyme Disease injected its change into their lives. It may even be hard to remember what you had felt during the normal that Lyme Disease removed. While this isn't to suggest that the normal Lyme Disease has bestowed us with is completely futile, and negative, because it's not. There exists great benefits through every normal we experience in life. You just have to know, not where, but how to look. This is merely just a reminder to remember the normal you were once a part of, and the normal you're fighting to obtain in the future.
You've been battling Lyme Disease now for months, or possibly many years, but to you it feels as though it's been forever. The fight has gone on for so long, that you've long since forgotten what it's like to feel normal; to be without Lyme. But after dealing with Lyme for such an extended period of time, and existing in its nearly constant debilitating state, it becomes the new normal. When something becomes the normal, we no longer question, or rarely dwell upon its existence in our lives. It's only when something is introduced into our lives that we question its presence.
In the beginning days of your Lyme Disease's manifestation, you were subjected to abnormal circumstances. If you can recall your state of mind, strange symptoms appeared both physically and mentally; symptoms that you likely never experienced before. Though it was not normal, it had yet to become the normal because the symptom's presence in your life was still young. Very little time was spent with them, and their impact on your life wasn't that big of a deal, yet. As time would pass, the symptoms would grow older, and begin to mature, which means they ended up hanging around, and the impact that which they would leave on your body grew to substantially debilitating levels. The transition from one normal to another would begin to take place, without any say or do from you.
It's almost as if the body naturally develops its normal based on the immediate circumstances it has been dealt, but why would the body learn to accept its newly found normal molded by Lyme Disease? It's not a normal a person would pine to remain, or lead their life through. It must be that this process of acclimating to a new normal is inherent, and occurs without any conscious say or do from the person under going the transition.
But is there any wrong about having Lyme Disease become the new normal? What purpose does developing a new normal serve for a person in the first place? To answer the first question, we must answer the latter, and based upon reasoning, survival might be an appropriate answer. Spending time and energy questioning a prospectively new normal serves a great purpose in the beginning, in that information is attained and an appropriate response can be administered. It's a survival mechanism; one that aims to redevelop circumstances that are suitable for life to continue on without harm or threat. In the beginning, Lyme Disease was very strange and bizarre, and you didn't know how to deal with it. So naturally, you opened your eyes and ears, observed what Lyme Disease had begun to perform with your life, and as a result, you were able to respond effectively with treatment, tests, diet, reasoning, etc. All solutions you innately developed and conjured in order to subconsciously sustain your life (i.e., the physical and mental challenges Lyme possessed).
"There exists great benefits through every normal we experience in life. You just have to know, not where, but how to look."
So if developing a new normal is a possible survival mechanism our minds deploy, then there can't be anything wrong with the process, right? Wrong! Our bodies are constantly developing new normals through every small change we experience in life. A good portion of our lives consists of people, places, and activities that we are all familiar with - the normal. It is only when new information is introduced into our lives, and to our brains, that we develop a new normal. What may surprise you is that this happens every day, but to a small and subtle degree it occurs. The normal is ever changing, but because the degree at which change is introduced is so small, it goes unnoticed. When change becomes too great for the human mind in a short period of time, this is when it becomes blatantly obvious that the normal is being challenged to change, and an immediate human response is to resist and question.
Resistance may work in the beginning, but as time passes, it ultimately loses the fight to change, and depending on how you've consciously decided to perceive the new normal the change has left you with, it can either work for or against you. Those enduring Lyme Disease had no choice but to give in to the new normal, and there is nothing wrong with that! So where is the wrong in this whole process? Well, the wrong isn't in accepting the new normal Lyme Disease has yielded us, the wrong is in that we unintentionally forget the normal we were once a part of, and hope to reclaim in the future.
And it isn't even that forgetting the normal we all hope to be a part of one day is wrong, it's the effect of this whole process that produces the illusion that we will never experience it again. And it's true, there is no need to look to the past because the normal we were once a part of will never exist again, so we look to the future. We think about the new normal we hope greatly to become a part of once Lyme Disease has passed, but this is where your current normal is challenged. While you may consciously tell yourself that you will one day be a part of this normal after you've vanquished Lyme Disease, does there not exist a feeling inside that tells you you won't; a very strong and overwhelming assurance that you could never possibly leave this normal behind? It seems almost incredibly easier to give in to this feeling, rather than your conscious understanding that you will leave this normal behind one day. But don't despair because this feeling is completely normal! This feeling you perceive is the normal - your current normal! Just as when you didn't have Lyme Disease, you never believed you would one day be a part of the normal you are now. This same process works in the exact same manner now. It's hard to believe that you'll one day be a part of a normal that is 100% deficient of Lyme, but what has history shown? It has shown clearly that we can become part of a normal that we currently can't conceive.
All with Lyme Disease share the common yearning for the normal they once had before Lyme Disease injected its change into their lives. It may even be hard to remember what you had felt during the normal that Lyme Disease removed. While this isn't to suggest that the normal Lyme Disease has bestowed us with is completely futile, and negative, because it's not. There exists great benefits through every normal we experience in life. You just have to know, not where, but how to look. This is merely just a reminder to remember the normal you were once a part of, and the normal you're fighting to obtain in the future.
Permanence: The Perceived Reality or Illusion That You Will Never Heal From Lyme Disease
If you're like every other person battling Lyme Disease, you're not alone in feeling frustrated, annoyed, and impatient. You're definitely not alone in feeling doubtful that you'll ever rid yourself of Lyme Disease. Believe it or not, this is a fairly common reality people with Lyme Disease paint for themselves, despite it being nothing more than a complete illusion. The idea that you'll exist in your current debilitated state until death takes over, has become the perceived reality in the minds of many whom continue to battle Lyme Disease, day in and day out.
Even though the concept of never eradicating Lyme Disease is a complete delusion, why do we ultimately end up not only generating this reality, but believing it? Well let's start with the basics, and then use logic to determine its possible origin.
Permanence. The idea that something will last indefinitely. Stop right there! That's exactly what permanency is, an idea. It originates in the mind, and exists only in the mind. But why? Well, the idea of permanence originating in the mind is due to the perceived circumstances a person with Lyme Disease generates. We must reflect or record our physical state mentally, and we do so by generating an emotion towards that physical experience. The circumstances appear to be hopeless, and all efforts appear to be in vein. This in turn, though not always true, generates the delusion of permanence within the mind of those battling Lyme Disease. From this moment forward, you sometimes recall your physical experience with Lyme Disease as a permanent existence. This is the emotion or thought you label, or designate, to the battle itself.
Of course though, generating your own opinions and beliefs of your circumstances can have its problems, as they're not always entirely true; especially without any hard evidence for a conviction. We human beings have a tendency to create within our minds false realities, or perceive false truths, which ever you prefer, but the problem doesn't stop there as we then go on and tend to believe them in their entireties, despite lacking the evidence to suggest our beliefs are truth. What convincing evidence does a person with Lyme Disease have to convince themselves that they'll be in their debilitating state forever? Well, not much. And the evidence they do find surely is out weighed in vast quantities by the evidence that suggests Lyme Disease won't last forever.
Another possible reason why those with Lyme fool themselves into believing that Lyme Disease will last indefinitely could be in their genes. It could be out of your conscious control, and automatically generated in the mind by your instincts. But why? Why would your body and mind lead you to believe that you will never get rid of Lyme Disease? The answer would have to deductively be survival.
"It's vastly important to remember that what we are and feel now, should never be assumed to be how we will feel or be in the future. There is no direct correlation."
Change the lens in which you perceive the body's ability to generate permanency of Lyme Disease in the mind as cruel, and perceive it in a beneficial manner. It could be that after a certain time threshold is passed under the circumstances of Lyme Disease, the mind has a natural tendency to develop an automatic acceptance of the state of your debilitation. The reason? Why waste energy and time on contemplating the fate or future of your life, when it could be put to better use; specifically in the present. It's almost as if the body is employing a survival tactic that forces you to focus on the present, and what you can do to better yourself now, instead of what appears to be uncertain in the future. It makes great sense though when you think about it because everything that we perform and do in the present as human beings, will ultimately give way to what will become of us in the future in regards to Lyme Disease.
"Because what physically happens outside of our minds, is not always in accordance or honestly reflective of what occurs within our minds. In other words what we think to be real in our minds may not be the physical reality or what actually exists outside of the mind."
The mind instinctively and autonomously generates an acceptance of possessing Lyme Disease forever, though we as humans consciously know it to be untrue. By performing this action, you then become able to focus your available energy and resources on not only surviving, but bettering yourself; this includes healing from Lyme Disease. This could very well be the exact generation of the precarious mentality you create when you constantly go back and forth in your mind between Lyme Disease being indefinite and finite. You constantly ask yourself, "Will I have Lyme Disease forever?", but never being able to completely and convincingly answer that haunting question.
Your conscious mind yields the finite reality of your fate, and your instincts generate the indefinite, but delusional reality. Your conscious mind leads you to believe that Lyme Disease won't last forever because of your understanding of the evidence readily available that shows it won't. Your instincts lead you to believe that the Lyme Disease will last the remaining duration of your life, and it does so to serve as a possible survival tactic. However, what determines whether you perceive your battle with Lyme Disease as finite or indefinite, solely depends on the knowledge you acquire that will directly fuel your conscious acceptance of a finite battle, to override an instinctive, evidence lacking, conclusion and belief that suggests permanency. And of course, remember that all of this conflict exists only in the mind. It's all principally a perception, and nothing more.
Also consider how you fooled yourself into believing your health could never deteriorate as much as it has, before Lyme Disease. You lived in a vibrant, joyous, and beautiful state of life before contracting Lyme Disease, and as permanent as this reality appeared, it was a complete delusion, as your current state of health proves. So why can't you apply that same mentality to your current state. Well, you can! You need to use your newly attained revelation in that what appears to be permanent, may not always be. You can surely apply the same process by which a healthful state appears to be permanent but wasn't, to your current state of health as well.
The Lyme Disease appears to be permanent, but it actually isn't, given what history has shown and what has become of you before. However, this time, you must be conscious of this process. When you were healthful and vibrant, you weren't in the least bit aware of what would become of you, but you did learn though the process that by which what appears to be permanent, is just an illusion. By consciously applying this tried and true reality, you have enough evidence to suggest that Lyme Disease won't last forever.
Given what you as a warrior have learned through the forever precarious nature of your current state of health, you become aware of the delusion of permanency. And in doing so, you can reasonably determine that what appears to be permanent, is nothing more than a thought supported by the lens that which you perceive your fate, and not hard truly convincing evidence. That by changing the way you perceive your state, and equipping yourself with the knowledge capable of yielding the results you desire to become from Lyme Disease, you become aware of the inevitable course of recovery you've been on all along.
If you're like every other person battling Lyme Disease, you're not alone in feeling frustrated, annoyed, and impatient. You're definitely not alone in feeling doubtful that you'll ever rid yourself of Lyme Disease. Believe it or not, this is a fairly common reality people with Lyme Disease paint for themselves, despite it being nothing more than a complete illusion. The idea that you'll exist in your current debilitated state until death takes over, has become the perceived reality in the minds of many whom continue to battle Lyme Disease, day in and day out.
Even though the concept of never eradicating Lyme Disease is a complete delusion, why do we ultimately end up not only generating this reality, but believing it? Well let's start with the basics, and then use logic to determine its possible origin.
Permanence. The idea that something will last indefinitely. Stop right there! That's exactly what permanency is, an idea. It originates in the mind, and exists only in the mind. But why? Well, the idea of permanence originating in the mind is due to the perceived circumstances a person with Lyme Disease generates. We must reflect or record our physical state mentally, and we do so by generating an emotion towards that physical experience. The circumstances appear to be hopeless, and all efforts appear to be in vein. This in turn, though not always true, generates the delusion of permanence within the mind of those battling Lyme Disease. From this moment forward, you sometimes recall your physical experience with Lyme Disease as a permanent existence. This is the emotion or thought you label, or designate, to the battle itself.
Of course though, generating your own opinions and beliefs of your circumstances can have its problems, as they're not always entirely true; especially without any hard evidence for a conviction. We human beings have a tendency to create within our minds false realities, or perceive false truths, which ever you prefer, but the problem doesn't stop there as we then go on and tend to believe them in their entireties, despite lacking the evidence to suggest our beliefs are truth. What convincing evidence does a person with Lyme Disease have to convince themselves that they'll be in their debilitating state forever? Well, not much. And the evidence they do find surely is out weighed in vast quantities by the evidence that suggests Lyme Disease won't last forever.
Another possible reason why those with Lyme fool themselves into believing that Lyme Disease will last indefinitely could be in their genes. It could be out of your conscious control, and automatically generated in the mind by your instincts. But why? Why would your body and mind lead you to believe that you will never get rid of Lyme Disease? The answer would have to deductively be survival.
"It's vastly important to remember that what we are and feel now, should never be assumed to be how we will feel or be in the future. There is no direct correlation."
Change the lens in which you perceive the body's ability to generate permanency of Lyme Disease in the mind as cruel, and perceive it in a beneficial manner. It could be that after a certain time threshold is passed under the circumstances of Lyme Disease, the mind has a natural tendency to develop an automatic acceptance of the state of your debilitation. The reason? Why waste energy and time on contemplating the fate or future of your life, when it could be put to better use; specifically in the present. It's almost as if the body is employing a survival tactic that forces you to focus on the present, and what you can do to better yourself now, instead of what appears to be uncertain in the future. It makes great sense though when you think about it because everything that we perform and do in the present as human beings, will ultimately give way to what will become of us in the future in regards to Lyme Disease.
"Because what physically happens outside of our minds, is not always in accordance or honestly reflective of what occurs within our minds. In other words what we think to be real in our minds may not be the physical reality or what actually exists outside of the mind."
The mind instinctively and autonomously generates an acceptance of possessing Lyme Disease forever, though we as humans consciously know it to be untrue. By performing this action, you then become able to focus your available energy and resources on not only surviving, but bettering yourself; this includes healing from Lyme Disease. This could very well be the exact generation of the precarious mentality you create when you constantly go back and forth in your mind between Lyme Disease being indefinite and finite. You constantly ask yourself, "Will I have Lyme Disease forever?", but never being able to completely and convincingly answer that haunting question.
Your conscious mind yields the finite reality of your fate, and your instincts generate the indefinite, but delusional reality. Your conscious mind leads you to believe that Lyme Disease won't last forever because of your understanding of the evidence readily available that shows it won't. Your instincts lead you to believe that the Lyme Disease will last the remaining duration of your life, and it does so to serve as a possible survival tactic. However, what determines whether you perceive your battle with Lyme Disease as finite or indefinite, solely depends on the knowledge you acquire that will directly fuel your conscious acceptance of a finite battle, to override an instinctive, evidence lacking, conclusion and belief that suggests permanency. And of course, remember that all of this conflict exists only in the mind. It's all principally a perception, and nothing more.
Also consider how you fooled yourself into believing your health could never deteriorate as much as it has, before Lyme Disease. You lived in a vibrant, joyous, and beautiful state of life before contracting Lyme Disease, and as permanent as this reality appeared, it was a complete delusion, as your current state of health proves. So why can't you apply that same mentality to your current state. Well, you can! You need to use your newly attained revelation in that what appears to be permanent, may not always be. You can surely apply the same process by which a healthful state appears to be permanent but wasn't, to your current state of health as well.
The Lyme Disease appears to be permanent, but it actually isn't, given what history has shown and what has become of you before. However, this time, you must be conscious of this process. When you were healthful and vibrant, you weren't in the least bit aware of what would become of you, but you did learn though the process that by which what appears to be permanent, is just an illusion. By consciously applying this tried and true reality, you have enough evidence to suggest that Lyme Disease won't last forever.
Given what you as a warrior have learned through the forever precarious nature of your current state of health, you become aware of the delusion of permanency. And in doing so, you can reasonably determine that what appears to be permanent, is nothing more than a thought supported by the lens that which you perceive your fate, and not hard truly convincing evidence. That by changing the way you perceive your state, and equipping yourself with the knowledge capable of yielding the results you desire to become from Lyme Disease, you become aware of the inevitable course of recovery you've been on all along.
The Impatience of Lyme Disease: The Development of Patience Can Only Occur Through a Conscious Understanding of the Situation
One of the most crucial components for overcoming Lyme Disease is patience. Without it, the tendency to steer off course and further delay healing and progress becomes incredibly enticing. Patience can not be bought or borrowed. It is a skill developed in the minds of some biological organisms, including human beings. The more intellectually understanding a person is of their trying situation, the longer patience remains active. This is not without acknowledging the difficultly in maintaining it.
To help develop patience, a person must be cognizant of the factors that currently contribute to their circumstances. Not only must they be able to identity these factors, but they must accept and understand them. They need to be incorporated into the playing field of one's conscious thought and rationality. By accomplishing this, a person will be able to respond effectively to what works and what does not. They drop and lose the methods and experiences that hinder their ability to heal from Lyme Disease, and seek out the knowledge that places them on the course for remission.
Once a person finds and understands that the newly attained methods and experiences for healing are yielding the desired results, patience will naturally follow. The reason it does is because the brain's logic department becomes prominent in conscious thought after learning of the new circumstances. Logic says that if I continue the course of treatment, given that it's effective, I will heal in due time and any impatience may possibly delay myself from achieving that goal.
Have you ever thought for a moment though why you'd develop an extreme impatience with Lyme Disease? Of course you have! You probably have a mile-long list of reasons why you can no longer muster the patience to endure Lyme Disease. Despite every reason on your list being self-evidently correct, there is however a principle reason or cause. The principle reason for your impatience with Lyme Disease is that you've become resistant of its empire. What does this mean though? Well it's very simple to understand and despite being the primary cause for impatience with Lyme Disease, it is the most overlooked, if even perceived at all.
Beneath all of the obvious reasons for impatience with Lyme Disease, such as an ineffective treatment protocol or symptoms that never cease to rest, there rests one that fuels that rest; the resistance of natural selection. For those that aren't aware of what natural selection is, it's the tendency of a species to survive depending on its ability to adapt to its environment. In other words the weak die off and the strong survive. But what does this have to do with Lyme Disease infiltrating your life and developing impatience?
"through rationality of their situation, a person can develop just enough conscious patience to override their instinctive impatience."
Human beings are biological organisms. By this reality, we are no less susceptible to the processes of nature than any other living creature on earth. Especially the process by which one living organism disrupts homeostasis, or physical and mental stability, in another in order to ensure the survival of their own species; or more specifically, Lyme Disease. That's exactly what Lyme Disease is. A bacteria, a single celled organism, but none the less another living organism like humans, disrupting the physical stability of our bodies in order to secure the survival of their own. Unfortunately during this process, though completely normal and abiding of the laws of nature, serious physical and mental harm occur to the body, if not death. Impatience develops during the resistance (treatment) of this long and grueling process.
Normally, the inferior and less evolved species becomes exhausted of their resources, withers, and dies. This is normal. What isn't normal or common is when the inferior species musters the ability to not only resist the superior species, but annihilates them. We do so with intelligence. This is exactly what is happening in a person with Lyme Disease. But because this process of rising up against a more evolved species, Borrelia, is so daunting and enduring, we naturally develop an unprecedented level of impatience. Especially given the circumstances in which the superior species lives inside the inferior one. The ability to cut ties with Borrelia is not as simple as running or hiding for us. Since the bacteria lives within us, the process of eradicating it is no easy task. It's inconceivably enduring and generates a long and debilitating existence for us. An existence that is unnatural for any living organism to be in, especially for such a long period of time. An existence that would have otherwise been avoided by death had human beings not possessed the intellectual capability to effectively resist Borrelia. Since this state of existence is unnatural, the only innate response we have to it is impatience and frustration; which aren't the best of mental tools for enduring the prolonged battle with Lyme Disease.
But how we respond instinctively to the prolonged battle with Lyme Disease doesn't have to be the prevailing response. In order to reduce our natural tendency to become impatient, we must inject conscious thought into the equation. If we can use our intelligence to effectively administer a treatment protocol, we can surely use it to persuade and change the course of mental thinking of the situation. One must generate a conscious understanding of their circumstances. By doing so, you attain all the information reflecting your circumstances, thus ultimately allowing you to respond accordingly. You perceive your circumstances and as long as the process of treatment unfolds in the manner expected, patience will naturally develop and become the new coping response.
Though a person's impatience with Lyme Disease will never truly disappear, through rationality of their situation, a person can develop just enough conscious patience to override their instinctive impatience. This process will likely have to be utilized many times throughout the course of treatment until it has finally given way to remission.
One could argue that what human beings lack in immunity to effectively fight a highly evolved bacteria, they make up with intelligence. The intelligence to understand the course of destruction of our internal foe and respond with a course of treatment to not only weaken and disrupt its innate agenda, but destroy its presence entirely. When this response yields the result we desire, we secure our own survival, for now. We live to see another day and further indulge in the beauty of what it means to be alive.
One of the most crucial components for overcoming Lyme Disease is patience. Without it, the tendency to steer off course and further delay healing and progress becomes incredibly enticing. Patience can not be bought or borrowed. It is a skill developed in the minds of some biological organisms, including human beings. The more intellectually understanding a person is of their trying situation, the longer patience remains active. This is not without acknowledging the difficultly in maintaining it.
To help develop patience, a person must be cognizant of the factors that currently contribute to their circumstances. Not only must they be able to identity these factors, but they must accept and understand them. They need to be incorporated into the playing field of one's conscious thought and rationality. By accomplishing this, a person will be able to respond effectively to what works and what does not. They drop and lose the methods and experiences that hinder their ability to heal from Lyme Disease, and seek out the knowledge that places them on the course for remission.
Once a person finds and understands that the newly attained methods and experiences for healing are yielding the desired results, patience will naturally follow. The reason it does is because the brain's logic department becomes prominent in conscious thought after learning of the new circumstances. Logic says that if I continue the course of treatment, given that it's effective, I will heal in due time and any impatience may possibly delay myself from achieving that goal.
Have you ever thought for a moment though why you'd develop an extreme impatience with Lyme Disease? Of course you have! You probably have a mile-long list of reasons why you can no longer muster the patience to endure Lyme Disease. Despite every reason on your list being self-evidently correct, there is however a principle reason or cause. The principle reason for your impatience with Lyme Disease is that you've become resistant of its empire. What does this mean though? Well it's very simple to understand and despite being the primary cause for impatience with Lyme Disease, it is the most overlooked, if even perceived at all.
Beneath all of the obvious reasons for impatience with Lyme Disease, such as an ineffective treatment protocol or symptoms that never cease to rest, there rests one that fuels that rest; the resistance of natural selection. For those that aren't aware of what natural selection is, it's the tendency of a species to survive depending on its ability to adapt to its environment. In other words the weak die off and the strong survive. But what does this have to do with Lyme Disease infiltrating your life and developing impatience?
"through rationality of their situation, a person can develop just enough conscious patience to override their instinctive impatience."
Human beings are biological organisms. By this reality, we are no less susceptible to the processes of nature than any other living creature on earth. Especially the process by which one living organism disrupts homeostasis, or physical and mental stability, in another in order to ensure the survival of their own species; or more specifically, Lyme Disease. That's exactly what Lyme Disease is. A bacteria, a single celled organism, but none the less another living organism like humans, disrupting the physical stability of our bodies in order to secure the survival of their own. Unfortunately during this process, though completely normal and abiding of the laws of nature, serious physical and mental harm occur to the body, if not death. Impatience develops during the resistance (treatment) of this long and grueling process.
Normally, the inferior and less evolved species becomes exhausted of their resources, withers, and dies. This is normal. What isn't normal or common is when the inferior species musters the ability to not only resist the superior species, but annihilates them. We do so with intelligence. This is exactly what is happening in a person with Lyme Disease. But because this process of rising up against a more evolved species, Borrelia, is so daunting and enduring, we naturally develop an unprecedented level of impatience. Especially given the circumstances in which the superior species lives inside the inferior one. The ability to cut ties with Borrelia is not as simple as running or hiding for us. Since the bacteria lives within us, the process of eradicating it is no easy task. It's inconceivably enduring and generates a long and debilitating existence for us. An existence that is unnatural for any living organism to be in, especially for such a long period of time. An existence that would have otherwise been avoided by death had human beings not possessed the intellectual capability to effectively resist Borrelia. Since this state of existence is unnatural, the only innate response we have to it is impatience and frustration; which aren't the best of mental tools for enduring the prolonged battle with Lyme Disease.
But how we respond instinctively to the prolonged battle with Lyme Disease doesn't have to be the prevailing response. In order to reduce our natural tendency to become impatient, we must inject conscious thought into the equation. If we can use our intelligence to effectively administer a treatment protocol, we can surely use it to persuade and change the course of mental thinking of the situation. One must generate a conscious understanding of their circumstances. By doing so, you attain all the information reflecting your circumstances, thus ultimately allowing you to respond accordingly. You perceive your circumstances and as long as the process of treatment unfolds in the manner expected, patience will naturally develop and become the new coping response.
Though a person's impatience with Lyme Disease will never truly disappear, through rationality of their situation, a person can develop just enough conscious patience to override their instinctive impatience. This process will likely have to be utilized many times throughout the course of treatment until it has finally given way to remission.
One could argue that what human beings lack in immunity to effectively fight a highly evolved bacteria, they make up with intelligence. The intelligence to understand the course of destruction of our internal foe and respond with a course of treatment to not only weaken and disrupt its innate agenda, but destroy its presence entirely. When this response yields the result we desire, we secure our own survival, for now. We live to see another day and further indulge in the beauty of what it means to be alive.
Floating: The Ever Present Feeling of Immunity or Disconnect From All of Life's Meaning
Imagine yourself all alone on a train traveling at a constant speed and in an unknown direction. While you're sitting in your seat, you look out the window and notice another train completely identical in appearance running parallel to yours. It appears to be traveling at the same constant speed and in the same direction as your train. After examining the parallel train's exterior, you peer through its windows and take note of what resides within its cabins. Your life. Everything that you've ever known, felt, and yearned for is seen on the train running parallel to yours. One train consists of your estranged self perceiving from a distance a train containing the constituents of your life. You can't interact with it. There is a complete disconnect and feeling of estrangement from the train but it forever travels by your side. All you can do is watch as the events of your life unfold and yearn deeply to exist within its realm. Somehow you wish the two trains could once more become a single entity.
The imagined scenario you just read is a metaphor for a psychological symptom of Lyme Disease Tired of Lyme has coined as "floating". An exact definition would be difficult to conjure and relate with which is why an analogy would serve as a better means of understanding and relation for the human mind.
You're a human being. You hurt. Sometimes the Lyme Disease gets the best of you
and it's ok.
Floating or "floating through life" can be defined as the ever present feeling of immunity or disconnect from all of life's meaning, purpose, reason, values and experiences while maintaining normal life functions and activities. When a person with Lyme Disease stops and reflects on this feeling, feelings of isolation, worthlessness, self pity, failure, estrangement tend to overwhelm a person's thought process. The reality in which they exist in appears to be surreal or dream like. They start to question reason, purpose, existence and even their own sanity. Truth appears to blend in with fiction, making it extremely difficult to distinguish between the two . It may appear through the lens of the person that the entire world feels the same as they do and can't consciously accept this illusion. They may feel the need or wish to "get out of their head" and stand a distance from this state of cognitive distortion.
The feelings may become so strong at times that a person may even imagine their own death occurring in their current environment and how the scenario would immediately unfold after the tragedy right before their eyes. This vision unfolds in the mind as almost an out of body experience; as if the person was watching their own death unfold from a distance. A person doesn't have to be suicidal to have such tragic visions but being in a such a severe state of floating can sometimes become unbearable for those who can't ride out its temporary stay. They run imaginative scenarios through their mind in an attempt to find a possible means of ridding the dark feeling that accompanies floating.
Here are some examples as how a constant but mild case of floating can affect the lives of those enduring this torturous and numb psychological symptom of Lyme Disease:
Floating appears to be the most ever present symptom of Lyme Disease. What this means basically is that unlike shortness of breath or buzzing sensations, the symptom rarely goes away. A good portion of the time it either dissipates or intensifies. The symptom does dissipate greatly once in a while but as treatment continues, so does the floating. There appears to be a direct correlation between the effectiveness of treatment and the strength of floating. It's almost as if the amount of endotoxins the bacteria release when its killed are directly responsible for the degree of floating. When the floating dissipates enough, a person will feel alive again; that they're real; that they have reason and purpose; that they don't feel so estranged from reality and may even go so far as to say they're normal once more. A feeling of extreme gratitude to be alive or for life in general may overwhelm a person who has recently come out a state of floating.
The ability to overcome floating while its occurring is feasible but it's going to require some serious brain power. When the feeling occurs, you must not let its dark oppression get the best of your ability to reason. You need to consciously tell yourself and accept that the oppressive and torturous state is only temporary and will dissipate shortly. Tell yourself by a means of logic that you have a bacterial infection within your body and that its malicious intent is the cause. Remind yourself that you're healing and logically determine that floating is just a symptom that will fade much like the rest of them through the course of treatment.
You're a human being. You hurt and its ok. Sometimes the Lyme Disease gets the best of you and its ok. You won't be able to shake off every influence it has on your mind, body and soul but you can change how you react to it. It's no secret that those who have been battling Lyme Disease for longer than they've imagined just want to feel normal again. They want to feel alive. They want to lead a life on their own terms without the presence of a bacterial infection and here is the reality; it can be done.
Imagine yourself all alone on a train traveling at a constant speed and in an unknown direction. While you're sitting in your seat, you look out the window and notice another train completely identical in appearance running parallel to yours. It appears to be traveling at the same constant speed and in the same direction as your train. After examining the parallel train's exterior, you peer through its windows and take note of what resides within its cabins. Your life. Everything that you've ever known, felt, and yearned for is seen on the train running parallel to yours. One train consists of your estranged self perceiving from a distance a train containing the constituents of your life. You can't interact with it. There is a complete disconnect and feeling of estrangement from the train but it forever travels by your side. All you can do is watch as the events of your life unfold and yearn deeply to exist within its realm. Somehow you wish the two trains could once more become a single entity.
The imagined scenario you just read is a metaphor for a psychological symptom of Lyme Disease Tired of Lyme has coined as "floating". An exact definition would be difficult to conjure and relate with which is why an analogy would serve as a better means of understanding and relation for the human mind.
You're a human being. You hurt. Sometimes the Lyme Disease gets the best of you
and it's ok.
Floating or "floating through life" can be defined as the ever present feeling of immunity or disconnect from all of life's meaning, purpose, reason, values and experiences while maintaining normal life functions and activities. When a person with Lyme Disease stops and reflects on this feeling, feelings of isolation, worthlessness, self pity, failure, estrangement tend to overwhelm a person's thought process. The reality in which they exist in appears to be surreal or dream like. They start to question reason, purpose, existence and even their own sanity. Truth appears to blend in with fiction, making it extremely difficult to distinguish between the two . It may appear through the lens of the person that the entire world feels the same as they do and can't consciously accept this illusion. They may feel the need or wish to "get out of their head" and stand a distance from this state of cognitive distortion.
The feelings may become so strong at times that a person may even imagine their own death occurring in their current environment and how the scenario would immediately unfold after the tragedy right before their eyes. This vision unfolds in the mind as almost an out of body experience; as if the person was watching their own death unfold from a distance. A person doesn't have to be suicidal to have such tragic visions but being in a such a severe state of floating can sometimes become unbearable for those who can't ride out its temporary stay. They run imaginative scenarios through their mind in an attempt to find a possible means of ridding the dark feeling that accompanies floating.
Here are some examples as how a constant but mild case of floating can affect the lives of those enduring this torturous and numb psychological symptom of Lyme Disease:
- Family and friend's birthdays and holiday literally mean nothing to a person with Lyme Disease. These events used to instill great excitement, passion, and meaning but now possess the same worth as any ordinary day on the calendar.
- Music is no longer a melodic composition. It becomes just a sound or noise. There exists no emotional manifestation within us when listening to a song from either the lyrics nor the actual music itself.
- You would feel that if a person your cared for greatly died, there would exist no sorrow or sadness within you. The need for mourning just wouldn't exist despite yearning badly to do so. Feelings of guilt for not honoring a person's death in the expected manner as a normal human would flood the mind.
- Seasons change without instilling excitement or feelings of loss for the next or recently past season. Fall may have recently arrived but you feel that you have yet to officially accept and experience summer. A season may even give the illusion that it stayed for an extremely short period of time.
Floating appears to be the most ever present symptom of Lyme Disease. What this means basically is that unlike shortness of breath or buzzing sensations, the symptom rarely goes away. A good portion of the time it either dissipates or intensifies. The symptom does dissipate greatly once in a while but as treatment continues, so does the floating. There appears to be a direct correlation between the effectiveness of treatment and the strength of floating. It's almost as if the amount of endotoxins the bacteria release when its killed are directly responsible for the degree of floating. When the floating dissipates enough, a person will feel alive again; that they're real; that they have reason and purpose; that they don't feel so estranged from reality and may even go so far as to say they're normal once more. A feeling of extreme gratitude to be alive or for life in general may overwhelm a person who has recently come out a state of floating.
The ability to overcome floating while its occurring is feasible but it's going to require some serious brain power. When the feeling occurs, you must not let its dark oppression get the best of your ability to reason. You need to consciously tell yourself and accept that the oppressive and torturous state is only temporary and will dissipate shortly. Tell yourself by a means of logic that you have a bacterial infection within your body and that its malicious intent is the cause. Remind yourself that you're healing and logically determine that floating is just a symptom that will fade much like the rest of them through the course of treatment.
You're a human being. You hurt and its ok. Sometimes the Lyme Disease gets the best of you and its ok. You won't be able to shake off every influence it has on your mind, body and soul but you can change how you react to it. It's no secret that those who have been battling Lyme Disease for longer than they've imagined just want to feel normal again. They want to feel alive. They want to lead a life on their own terms without the presence of a bacterial infection and here is the reality; it can be done.
The Machine: The Chance to Distinguish Yourself From the World
What point or reality in our lives must arise in which we as a person can truly understand what it is that we have long yearned for? What event or circumstance must unfold in which we realize that everything we were, was never even close to all that we really are? What must become of us in order to truly understand and see who we really are?
Many would argue that chronic Lyme Disease has done nothing more than waste time that is perceived to be valuable and precious. Time that would have otherwise been utilized to fulfill man made obligations and adhere to the strict and unnatural principles that we have foolishly and without a fight, let govern our lives. After healing has restored our physical nature from Lyme Disease, it will become apparent that the people who believe this notion could not be further from the truth. A belief it will remain. A belief that is merely a result of our complete misunderstanding of what life can truly offer.
The perception of Lyme Disease wasting time will always be a strongly held opinion and nothing more. We as humans look for facts that support and secure certainty and confidence but in regard to this opinion, no true evidence can ever be found. It doesn't exist. One can never prove an opinion since it will forever remain a personal perception of life that is unique to an individual. One can prove that an opinion exists but that's different than proving an opinion is indisputable. Unfortunately this specific perception of life is agreed upon by the majority of the people seen everyday but logic dictates that a majority rule of an opinion doesn't indicate fact. Use this new understanding to free yourself of the chains that have since stripped you of any true callings, desires or passions.
Lyme Disease will place the duties, obligations and aspirations we've once believed to be a reflection of our inner truth, on hold. It pulls us out of the machine and forces us to newly perceive, understand and accept where true comfort and personal satisfaction were foolishly conceived to reside. The machine that breeds duty and societal obligations. The machine that has skewed our ideology in such a way that it becomes standard procedure to accept lies as truth. The ability to think and perceive above and beyond the obvious has been distorted since we've become one with the machine.
It may not be obvious until one leaves the machine but it is the machine that has stripped us and required the surrender of our truest individuality. As a result, we've blindly but willingly accepted obligations that we've never really enjoyed, the loss of self expression that has been nothing but lost since the illusion of responsibility was drilled into our minds and the infringement of our personal desires in which we were fooled to believe were inappropriate or irrelevant to the development of the lie we were required to live.
Lyme Disease will pull us out of the machine. At first instinct it is to distrust what we believe could and does harm us just as Lyme Disease has, but because we humans have the capability to heal from its detrimental oppression, there will come a time in which the equation of the circumstances change. The formula will still include your exclusion from the machine but as opposed to having Lyme Disease, you'll be free of its reign. As a result, you'll be left will total individuality, total desire and total passion to be; without any influences from the machine. When the dust clears and Lyme Disease has been eradicated, there stands next to you a chance to become once more.
There will be fear and ambivalence of the new reality. Though how easily could one fall back into the machine once more and adhere strictly to an old and obsolete routine? Or how easily could one accept the clean slate that awaits a scripture of a new understanding of life. The choice is solely unique to an individual and neither is right nor wrong. The decision made though will honestly reflect and show how one has truly interpreted the favor that chronic Lyme Disease became to us.
Some will argue that before Lyme Disease, their truest desires and passions were being fulfilled; that they were expressing themselves without the influence of the machine. There is no arguing this clause as it surely may have been true for some people. Lyme Disease couldn't have been a favor to everyone so what does it truly mean to a person if it is of no benefit? Acceptance. Accepting that there are realities that are greater than who we are. The human mind will not accept Lyme Disease with open arms, but in time, it will be taught through experience and an impending battle for life, that we are not as nearly in control as we've lead ourselves to believe. Accepting this reality is our greatest strength against any opposition.
What is it that we human beings are truly obligated to in life? What are we indefinitely responsible for? The answer may surprise but it is simply just survival. All other man made conceptions of obligations, requirements, duties and responsibilities are just that; a conception. They'll never truly be capable of sustaining life. Comfort and convenience they may provide but a true sustainability of life will remain untouchable.
We humans possess a powerful brain that has not yet been truly tamed or understood. Its capabilities are forever evolving but it is our man made beliefs and disputable opinions that stall the progression and advancement our species. As a result, we've become so intelligent that we've actually learned to fool ourselves time and time again. It's a mental paradox. It's is an imperative that we learn how to harness the brain's power and capability in such a way that a true and honest understanding of life and self is obtained.
When a person can achieve a true understanding of self and life, then an objective to achieve and seek true internal happiness can finally be executed. A small and conclusive reality of this statement is that Lyme Disease has not taken away all that was ever known but it has shown all that was never had nor yet to be.
What point or reality in our lives must arise in which we as a person can truly understand what it is that we have long yearned for? What event or circumstance must unfold in which we realize that everything we were, was never even close to all that we really are? What must become of us in order to truly understand and see who we really are?
Many would argue that chronic Lyme Disease has done nothing more than waste time that is perceived to be valuable and precious. Time that would have otherwise been utilized to fulfill man made obligations and adhere to the strict and unnatural principles that we have foolishly and without a fight, let govern our lives. After healing has restored our physical nature from Lyme Disease, it will become apparent that the people who believe this notion could not be further from the truth. A belief it will remain. A belief that is merely a result of our complete misunderstanding of what life can truly offer.
The perception of Lyme Disease wasting time will always be a strongly held opinion and nothing more. We as humans look for facts that support and secure certainty and confidence but in regard to this opinion, no true evidence can ever be found. It doesn't exist. One can never prove an opinion since it will forever remain a personal perception of life that is unique to an individual. One can prove that an opinion exists but that's different than proving an opinion is indisputable. Unfortunately this specific perception of life is agreed upon by the majority of the people seen everyday but logic dictates that a majority rule of an opinion doesn't indicate fact. Use this new understanding to free yourself of the chains that have since stripped you of any true callings, desires or passions.
Lyme Disease will place the duties, obligations and aspirations we've once believed to be a reflection of our inner truth, on hold. It pulls us out of the machine and forces us to newly perceive, understand and accept where true comfort and personal satisfaction were foolishly conceived to reside. The machine that breeds duty and societal obligations. The machine that has skewed our ideology in such a way that it becomes standard procedure to accept lies as truth. The ability to think and perceive above and beyond the obvious has been distorted since we've become one with the machine.
It may not be obvious until one leaves the machine but it is the machine that has stripped us and required the surrender of our truest individuality. As a result, we've blindly but willingly accepted obligations that we've never really enjoyed, the loss of self expression that has been nothing but lost since the illusion of responsibility was drilled into our minds and the infringement of our personal desires in which we were fooled to believe were inappropriate or irrelevant to the development of the lie we were required to live.
Lyme Disease will pull us out of the machine. At first instinct it is to distrust what we believe could and does harm us just as Lyme Disease has, but because we humans have the capability to heal from its detrimental oppression, there will come a time in which the equation of the circumstances change. The formula will still include your exclusion from the machine but as opposed to having Lyme Disease, you'll be free of its reign. As a result, you'll be left will total individuality, total desire and total passion to be; without any influences from the machine. When the dust clears and Lyme Disease has been eradicated, there stands next to you a chance to become once more.
There will be fear and ambivalence of the new reality. Though how easily could one fall back into the machine once more and adhere strictly to an old and obsolete routine? Or how easily could one accept the clean slate that awaits a scripture of a new understanding of life. The choice is solely unique to an individual and neither is right nor wrong. The decision made though will honestly reflect and show how one has truly interpreted the favor that chronic Lyme Disease became to us.
Some will argue that before Lyme Disease, their truest desires and passions were being fulfilled; that they were expressing themselves without the influence of the machine. There is no arguing this clause as it surely may have been true for some people. Lyme Disease couldn't have been a favor to everyone so what does it truly mean to a person if it is of no benefit? Acceptance. Accepting that there are realities that are greater than who we are. The human mind will not accept Lyme Disease with open arms, but in time, it will be taught through experience and an impending battle for life, that we are not as nearly in control as we've lead ourselves to believe. Accepting this reality is our greatest strength against any opposition.
What is it that we human beings are truly obligated to in life? What are we indefinitely responsible for? The answer may surprise but it is simply just survival. All other man made conceptions of obligations, requirements, duties and responsibilities are just that; a conception. They'll never truly be capable of sustaining life. Comfort and convenience they may provide but a true sustainability of life will remain untouchable.
We humans possess a powerful brain that has not yet been truly tamed or understood. Its capabilities are forever evolving but it is our man made beliefs and disputable opinions that stall the progression and advancement our species. As a result, we've become so intelligent that we've actually learned to fool ourselves time and time again. It's a mental paradox. It's is an imperative that we learn how to harness the brain's power and capability in such a way that a true and honest understanding of life and self is obtained.
When a person can achieve a true understanding of self and life, then an objective to achieve and seek true internal happiness can finally be executed. A small and conclusive reality of this statement is that Lyme Disease has not taken away all that was ever known but it has shown all that was never had nor yet to be.
Numb: The Complete Emotional Disconnect From Life
When life is born, it is genetically endowed with an amazing and truly astounding ability to emotionally invest in and receive from other living and non-living entities. This emotional investment generates a somewhat invisible tether in which we become attached to the entity. In turn, this becomes a gateway for emotions to transfer through. The emotions are grand as they really are the adjectives to a life. The spices in which life becomes interesting and more than just a stagnant existence. Love, fear, hope, joy, courage, despair, anticipation, and peace are just a small fraction of the plethora of beautiful ways in which we establish a connection with our surroundings. Never could a thought have been conceived in which a total emotional disconnection from all entities could occur.
Lyme Disease is directly responsible for detaching our emotions from all that we have always assumed to exist in ours lives and take for granted. It has cut the invisible tether with sheer malevolence and a malicious determination to completely shun and disconnect our souls from all the reasons we exist for. For it is nothing more than a malignant attempt to destroy any resources life could still harness to develop a resistance towards the bacteria's intended purpose. When a person loses all ability to embrace life, deterioration of the soul begins.
This complete emotional isolation is nothing short of indescribable with words. If anything, the words diminish the true nature of the beast. It must be made known that this emotional disconnection is widespread throughout the Lyme community. It is not a unique and unacknowledged symptom but can undoubtedly appear that way due to the level of difficulty that exists in truly trying to understand and explain its ominous wrath.
Before Lyme Disease, you could feel. You could feel the joy of seeing a good friend for the first time in a long time. You could feel the pain that accompanied the departure of a lover. You could feel the pure inspiration from art and self expression. You could feel the total satisfaction received after going beyond the call of duty for another human. You could feel the pure hurt and pain of the death of those you've always held so close. You could feel the desire to carry on well beyond any obstruction or deterrent that came your way. You could feel the love that so indefinitely defined what it meant to be alive, but not now. You have lost all ability to feel as the complete disconnection from your emotions reigns supreme. For now.
The tether that is realized to be so crucial to a life only after it has been sliced, can and does in fact repair itself constantly. For destruction could not exist without healing and repair. The two would not exist without one another. The moment Lyme breaks this tether, reconstruction to reestablish a connection to our environment is well under way. It's a continuum fueled by the physical body's ability to save and preserve its lifelong companion, the mind. By fighting back on a physical level, the body and its antibiotic ally attempt to destroy the bacteria that has set course to destroy who we really are. The qualities that make us human must be preserved. Even if it's only to show resistance to the menacing plague that has over stayed a welcome, that has yet to exist.
When life is born, it is genetically endowed with an amazing and truly astounding ability to emotionally invest in and receive from other living and non-living entities. This emotional investment generates a somewhat invisible tether in which we become attached to the entity. In turn, this becomes a gateway for emotions to transfer through. The emotions are grand as they really are the adjectives to a life. The spices in which life becomes interesting and more than just a stagnant existence. Love, fear, hope, joy, courage, despair, anticipation, and peace are just a small fraction of the plethora of beautiful ways in which we establish a connection with our surroundings. Never could a thought have been conceived in which a total emotional disconnection from all entities could occur.
Lyme Disease is directly responsible for detaching our emotions from all that we have always assumed to exist in ours lives and take for granted. It has cut the invisible tether with sheer malevolence and a malicious determination to completely shun and disconnect our souls from all the reasons we exist for. For it is nothing more than a malignant attempt to destroy any resources life could still harness to develop a resistance towards the bacteria's intended purpose. When a person loses all ability to embrace life, deterioration of the soul begins.
This complete emotional isolation is nothing short of indescribable with words. If anything, the words diminish the true nature of the beast. It must be made known that this emotional disconnection is widespread throughout the Lyme community. It is not a unique and unacknowledged symptom but can undoubtedly appear that way due to the level of difficulty that exists in truly trying to understand and explain its ominous wrath.
Before Lyme Disease, you could feel. You could feel the joy of seeing a good friend for the first time in a long time. You could feel the pain that accompanied the departure of a lover. You could feel the pure inspiration from art and self expression. You could feel the total satisfaction received after going beyond the call of duty for another human. You could feel the pure hurt and pain of the death of those you've always held so close. You could feel the desire to carry on well beyond any obstruction or deterrent that came your way. You could feel the love that so indefinitely defined what it meant to be alive, but not now. You have lost all ability to feel as the complete disconnection from your emotions reigns supreme. For now.
The tether that is realized to be so crucial to a life only after it has been sliced, can and does in fact repair itself constantly. For destruction could not exist without healing and repair. The two would not exist without one another. The moment Lyme breaks this tether, reconstruction to reestablish a connection to our environment is well under way. It's a continuum fueled by the physical body's ability to save and preserve its lifelong companion, the mind. By fighting back on a physical level, the body and its antibiotic ally attempt to destroy the bacteria that has set course to destroy who we really are. The qualities that make us human must be preserved. Even if it's only to show resistance to the menacing plague that has over stayed a welcome, that has yet to exist.
Lost Time is a Lost Mind: Personal Perspective Creates the Illusion of Wasted Time
It is with great understanding that Lyme Disease has the inevitable power to instill a sense of wasted time within us. In reality this is untrue based on the simple claim of perspective. In fact the only time truly wasted is the time that is spent believing that the time spent on Lyme Disease is wasted.
Before Lyme Disease became an ominous force in one's life, there was plan. The plan incorporated aspirations that seemed to be all but untouchable. It became obvious one's guard was let down when an expected change of course entered your life. Unwillingly you were forced to accept the blind fate that quickly reminded you how unprepared you were. Your life was subjugated by the relentless torment from the millions of lives of another. No longer would the future seem certain and secure as each approaching day yielded no answers. It became apparent that a direction never once conceived would be the only direction permissible to attain what one so dearly took for granted. The time spent adhering to this direction is believed by many to be a waste.
The truth is that the current course one has been destined to endure breeds no waste of time. For in every experience in our lives, whether the appropriate preparations have been taken or not, the chance to learn and become, always accompanies. Whether or not one can embrace this natural gift is reflected entirely on the perspective of the fight.
The time spent enduring Lyme Disease for many seems to be a waste. For it seems that all Lyme Disease has created is nothing but a damper on the aspirations of a former life. At the current moment it essentially has but there is another view in plain sight that is all but overlooked. How quickly we humans assume that time is wasted simply due to an unwelcomed alteration to our lives. In doing so, we forget that in every experiece in life we continue to learn whether we approve of the change or not. It essentially reminds us that we never really were in control of our destiny.
If we look with new eyes, the incomprehensible predicament teaches what life truly means to us. We come to learn the unfathomable strength that was never believed to exist within. The true determination that in the eyes of oppression we can once again rise above all that only intends to inflict harm and despair. As determental as the blows are, no limit or capacity of our ability to withstand their depth is ever made known. We blindly undertake the unforeseeable challenge with a mind, body and soul that have all but our deepest faith and trust resting upon them.
For this is just another challenge that bleeds no waste of time. One must change perspectives and embrace what can never be learned from any other experience in life. For when the dust settles, you will be endowed with a new understanding of the world and the best way to approach it. Your aspirations will come again one day but for now, one must not fight what can not be fought but fight for what always could be won.
It is with great understanding that Lyme Disease has the inevitable power to instill a sense of wasted time within us. In reality this is untrue based on the simple claim of perspective. In fact the only time truly wasted is the time that is spent believing that the time spent on Lyme Disease is wasted.
Before Lyme Disease became an ominous force in one's life, there was plan. The plan incorporated aspirations that seemed to be all but untouchable. It became obvious one's guard was let down when an expected change of course entered your life. Unwillingly you were forced to accept the blind fate that quickly reminded you how unprepared you were. Your life was subjugated by the relentless torment from the millions of lives of another. No longer would the future seem certain and secure as each approaching day yielded no answers. It became apparent that a direction never once conceived would be the only direction permissible to attain what one so dearly took for granted. The time spent adhering to this direction is believed by many to be a waste.
The truth is that the current course one has been destined to endure breeds no waste of time. For in every experience in our lives, whether the appropriate preparations have been taken or not, the chance to learn and become, always accompanies. Whether or not one can embrace this natural gift is reflected entirely on the perspective of the fight.
The time spent enduring Lyme Disease for many seems to be a waste. For it seems that all Lyme Disease has created is nothing but a damper on the aspirations of a former life. At the current moment it essentially has but there is another view in plain sight that is all but overlooked. How quickly we humans assume that time is wasted simply due to an unwelcomed alteration to our lives. In doing so, we forget that in every experiece in life we continue to learn whether we approve of the change or not. It essentially reminds us that we never really were in control of our destiny.
If we look with new eyes, the incomprehensible predicament teaches what life truly means to us. We come to learn the unfathomable strength that was never believed to exist within. The true determination that in the eyes of oppression we can once again rise above all that only intends to inflict harm and despair. As determental as the blows are, no limit or capacity of our ability to withstand their depth is ever made known. We blindly undertake the unforeseeable challenge with a mind, body and soul that have all but our deepest faith and trust resting upon them.
For this is just another challenge that bleeds no waste of time. One must change perspectives and embrace what can never be learned from any other experience in life. For when the dust settles, you will be endowed with a new understanding of the world and the best way to approach it. Your aspirations will come again one day but for now, one must not fight what can not be fought but fight for what always could be won.
Pieces: Pieces of Healing Construct New Life
Though it may not be obvious now, there will come a time when the progression of healing will make itself known. As the direction of victory becomes obvious, it will manifest itself in small but honest indications of a life that will soon become. It is with the highest gratitude to accept the pieces of the life that was at one moment in time, forever thought to be untouchable.
For we all have existed far too long in a time of uncertainty and doubt. A time where it could have never been made known that one day the reign of malady would end. A starved soul that still hungers for what is beautiful, has patiently waited for the plague to end.
Our lives will always remain in a constant state of battle. Destruction will always challenge the ability to heal as the continuum. The intensity or significance of the battle may not always be enough to warrant the downfall of an unsuspecting life. The knowledge and strength that has been found in our struggle, will serve us unrelenting in the incomparable challenges and endeavors that will follow the current predicament. You have awaken from the misconception of the human body's capabilities and in doing so have set forth a new destiny.
The resulting fate will render a new life with restored passion for all of its encompassments. All that has been lost and forgotten for unacceptably too long will give the chance of reacclimation. You will learn that change has been inevitable beyond the struggle one has endured.
As the pieces of healing and the new life become available for the accepting, a new puzzle will emerge just as it blindfully did in the beginning of the disease's rampage and delinquent intentions of torture. The new life's puzzle, like the disease's, will bring uncertainty and curiosity but without an ailing physical or mental state. The absence of debilitation, as unbelieving and incomprehensible as it is now, will allow the fullest of embracement of a life that is for the taking once again. Let the attainable imbue one's fight and determination. Let no obstruction deter one from accepting what was never in stone. Let no amount of pain and struggle give reason to surrender what one truly seeks. Let it be known that the possibility to vanquish the fear and skepticism of victory are existent and have never yielded unfavorable odds.
Though it may not be obvious now, there will come a time when the progression of healing will make itself known. As the direction of victory becomes obvious, it will manifest itself in small but honest indications of a life that will soon become. It is with the highest gratitude to accept the pieces of the life that was at one moment in time, forever thought to be untouchable.
For we all have existed far too long in a time of uncertainty and doubt. A time where it could have never been made known that one day the reign of malady would end. A starved soul that still hungers for what is beautiful, has patiently waited for the plague to end.
Our lives will always remain in a constant state of battle. Destruction will always challenge the ability to heal as the continuum. The intensity or significance of the battle may not always be enough to warrant the downfall of an unsuspecting life. The knowledge and strength that has been found in our struggle, will serve us unrelenting in the incomparable challenges and endeavors that will follow the current predicament. You have awaken from the misconception of the human body's capabilities and in doing so have set forth a new destiny.
The resulting fate will render a new life with restored passion for all of its encompassments. All that has been lost and forgotten for unacceptably too long will give the chance of reacclimation. You will learn that change has been inevitable beyond the struggle one has endured.
As the pieces of healing and the new life become available for the accepting, a new puzzle will emerge just as it blindfully did in the beginning of the disease's rampage and delinquent intentions of torture. The new life's puzzle, like the disease's, will bring uncertainty and curiosity but without an ailing physical or mental state. The absence of debilitation, as unbelieving and incomprehensible as it is now, will allow the fullest of embracement of a life that is for the taking once again. Let the attainable imbue one's fight and determination. Let no obstruction deter one from accepting what was never in stone. Let no amount of pain and struggle give reason to surrender what one truly seeks. Let it be known that the possibility to vanquish the fear and skepticism of victory are existent and have never yielded unfavorable odds.
Beyond the Victory: Perceive the Future to Endure the Present
Have you thought about what life will be like after you're healed or do you dwell on and yearn for the life you used to have? Either answer is correct because you and I currently reside in the unknown. The unknown is essentially the transitional period from the life we unwillingly let go of, to the life that has yet to come from beyond the victory.
All of us are living a life that we were forced to endure unwillingly and without blame. We had no choice but to accept what was beyond our control and learn to embrace a new but temporary normal. Leading a life in the unknown naturally spawns fears with intent to create reciprocating securities. The only true and certain safe haven we could bring with us is our memory. Our memory contains the known, which in our state of uncertainty, eases the fears of where we are and where we're going.
Where do these memories come from? They came from a time that once existed in our lives where love, passion, purpose and existence prospered. Do you remember the time in your life where your body didn't need the life saving power of an antibiotic? Do you remember a time where your energy had no dictatorship? Do you remember what it was like to ingest the soulfully tangible feeling of love and passion? Of course you do. For it is the only true foundation that supports and allows an internal war to be waged with intentions of achieving an almost always inconceivably possible outcome.
What about those of us who are in the same position but have a different perspective? Those of us who understand the circumstances of the transition but can't find the strength, reason or a purpose to move forward. It's not their fault. Leaving the security of the known and facing the fear of the unknown involuntarily is no easy task but it can be done.
You must not look at the disease as a hell but more as a gift. In life, evil would not exist without good and pain would not exist without pleasure. Balance comes with everything and finding it depends entirely on your perspective.
You may not realize it now but you've been given a clean slate. Your former life and all of the treasures that encompassed it have disappeared. It surely can be the most isolated and uncertain feeling if you don't know where to look. You can't stay in this transition forever and you surely know that you can't go back to the life we desperately yearn for. There is only one direction to move towards and that is to the victory and beyond.
The victory will be the end of the torture and the beginning of a new life. A new normal. Physically and visually everything will seem the same but out of your body is not where a slate has been wiped clean. Inside of you, a new existence will emerge with a new perspective and appreciation for all of life's glory.
For now, all we can do is fight the battles that will make way to a life that is so desperately sought after but not impossible to attain. You must remember that though the endeavor is challenging and the outcome seems only imaginary, it is not and will never be impossible to obtain. For there are those, like you and I, who have been in the transitional period and have found the strength and courage to move forward with the acceptance of losing one life to gain another. Their duty is done and their success is achieved. They have paved a road with certainty, faith and trust and bestowed inside of us the unrelenting possibility that you can and will one day exist beyond the victory.
Have you thought about what life will be like after you're healed or do you dwell on and yearn for the life you used to have? Either answer is correct because you and I currently reside in the unknown. The unknown is essentially the transitional period from the life we unwillingly let go of, to the life that has yet to come from beyond the victory.
All of us are living a life that we were forced to endure unwillingly and without blame. We had no choice but to accept what was beyond our control and learn to embrace a new but temporary normal. Leading a life in the unknown naturally spawns fears with intent to create reciprocating securities. The only true and certain safe haven we could bring with us is our memory. Our memory contains the known, which in our state of uncertainty, eases the fears of where we are and where we're going.
Where do these memories come from? They came from a time that once existed in our lives where love, passion, purpose and existence prospered. Do you remember the time in your life where your body didn't need the life saving power of an antibiotic? Do you remember a time where your energy had no dictatorship? Do you remember what it was like to ingest the soulfully tangible feeling of love and passion? Of course you do. For it is the only true foundation that supports and allows an internal war to be waged with intentions of achieving an almost always inconceivably possible outcome.
What about those of us who are in the same position but have a different perspective? Those of us who understand the circumstances of the transition but can't find the strength, reason or a purpose to move forward. It's not their fault. Leaving the security of the known and facing the fear of the unknown involuntarily is no easy task but it can be done.
You must not look at the disease as a hell but more as a gift. In life, evil would not exist without good and pain would not exist without pleasure. Balance comes with everything and finding it depends entirely on your perspective.
You may not realize it now but you've been given a clean slate. Your former life and all of the treasures that encompassed it have disappeared. It surely can be the most isolated and uncertain feeling if you don't know where to look. You can't stay in this transition forever and you surely know that you can't go back to the life we desperately yearn for. There is only one direction to move towards and that is to the victory and beyond.
The victory will be the end of the torture and the beginning of a new life. A new normal. Physically and visually everything will seem the same but out of your body is not where a slate has been wiped clean. Inside of you, a new existence will emerge with a new perspective and appreciation for all of life's glory.
For now, all we can do is fight the battles that will make way to a life that is so desperately sought after but not impossible to attain. You must remember that though the endeavor is challenging and the outcome seems only imaginary, it is not and will never be impossible to obtain. For there are those, like you and I, who have been in the transitional period and have found the strength and courage to move forward with the acceptance of losing one life to gain another. Their duty is done and their success is achieved. They have paved a road with certainty, faith and trust and bestowed inside of us the unrelenting possibility that you can and will one day exist beyond the victory.
An Iron Soul: Your Last Defense Against Chronic Lyme Disease
The Lyme bacteria coursing through your body is a physical, tangible entity vanquishing another. Without question, at times it feels this entity has devoured every last bit of fight we could conjure. This is where you've been misled.
See, there was a time when you could feel everything. Every laugh and every love that could appeal to your sense and understanding of happiness and life. For now you have lost your touch but never should you feel responsible for such a loss. It was never your fault but may I remind you with certainty that it's not forever. There will come a day when all the pain and suffering will be buried along side the doubts you never thought you could rid. A life will be reborn.
To get there though takes courage, persistence and patience. The most important of them all is to never let the bacteria invade your soul because once it does your life becomes its taking. Never allow it to transform everything you ever were but do understand the person it has made you realize has always existed in you. Your soul is the last defense you have to continue an existence. It contains the greatest quintessential understanding a human being can employ. You would have never imagined you'd be forced to tap into such a powerful resource.
There is a reason you're still alive and one that can only be proved by what you have yet to become. You've been given time and it is your chance to critically think of the best means of killing the bacteria. Allowing you to reclaim a lost life that could never have been done through a presumptuously expected seize of existence. Lyme may destroy every physical aspect of your body. It may obstruct every rational thought and feeling but it can never steal your soul.
The Lyme bacteria coursing through your body is a physical, tangible entity vanquishing another. Without question, at times it feels this entity has devoured every last bit of fight we could conjure. This is where you've been misled.
See, there was a time when you could feel everything. Every laugh and every love that could appeal to your sense and understanding of happiness and life. For now you have lost your touch but never should you feel responsible for such a loss. It was never your fault but may I remind you with certainty that it's not forever. There will come a day when all the pain and suffering will be buried along side the doubts you never thought you could rid. A life will be reborn.
To get there though takes courage, persistence and patience. The most important of them all is to never let the bacteria invade your soul because once it does your life becomes its taking. Never allow it to transform everything you ever were but do understand the person it has made you realize has always existed in you. Your soul is the last defense you have to continue an existence. It contains the greatest quintessential understanding a human being can employ. You would have never imagined you'd be forced to tap into such a powerful resource.
There is a reason you're still alive and one that can only be proved by what you have yet to become. You've been given time and it is your chance to critically think of the best means of killing the bacteria. Allowing you to reclaim a lost life that could never have been done through a presumptuously expected seize of existence. Lyme may destroy every physical aspect of your body. It may obstruct every rational thought and feeling but it can never steal your soul.
Anxiety and Lyme Disease: Accepting the Unimagineable
Anxiety is fear, and fear stems from the misunderstood or the unknown. No person who contracted Lyme Disease understood what exactly they were dealing with. Symptoms that you've never experienced from even your worst flu, have made themselves known. Even before testing positive for Lyme or at least concluding on good judgement, the uncertainty of what could happen to you and what you're suppose to do, makes your mind race.
It's very scary when the unknown and unimaginable threaten your life. Naturally we turn to people we would hope and assume know what we're going through to help us but even their words leave many doubts and unanswered questions. Why did I have to get Lyme Disease? How do I treat it? Why is it that my tests come back negative but I still show the symptoms?
The complexity of this disease can at times be very unbearable. Aspects ranging from treatment, finances, relationships and the not so simple task of understanding your bestowal, all seem to be placed on our shoulders with the added burden of decision making encompassed within them. Decisions that could change a life stem from the source of a bacterium. So many questions with not enough answers and resources to initiate a proper treatment protocol in a rational amount of time. Living under the constant veil of unassurance.
There is constant pressure from friends and family to resume your normal life. This is very difficult because who wants to succumb to the conditions of a long term illness that disables them. The people in our lives don't understand the constant reeling that flourishes through our very souls. A disease that shows no external indication of a troubled body, mind and soul, more than likely will lead to the fall out of almost all of our relationships. Forcing you on your own to deal with the thoughts and troubles an ominous plague creates.
Anxiety alone can lead to one making rash accusations and conjuring unforeseen thoughts. Fear is designed to protect. Keep us vigilant in the face of a threat and uncertainty. It's a survival instinct but living in such a state for an extended period of time can have its toll on our physical functions such as the immune system. Living under constant stress and anxiety will only suppress the immune system even more.
It all comes down to controlling your thoughts and finding answers to create an understanding. In time, this will lead to a faster and better recovery from a situation that doesn't have to exist forever. Remember, even though our thoughts are influenced entirely on our surrounding and environment, you have the final say in how they affect you.
Popular herbs for combating anxiety
Anxiety is fear, and fear stems from the misunderstood or the unknown. No person who contracted Lyme Disease understood what exactly they were dealing with. Symptoms that you've never experienced from even your worst flu, have made themselves known. Even before testing positive for Lyme or at least concluding on good judgement, the uncertainty of what could happen to you and what you're suppose to do, makes your mind race.
It's very scary when the unknown and unimaginable threaten your life. Naturally we turn to people we would hope and assume know what we're going through to help us but even their words leave many doubts and unanswered questions. Why did I have to get Lyme Disease? How do I treat it? Why is it that my tests come back negative but I still show the symptoms?
The complexity of this disease can at times be very unbearable. Aspects ranging from treatment, finances, relationships and the not so simple task of understanding your bestowal, all seem to be placed on our shoulders with the added burden of decision making encompassed within them. Decisions that could change a life stem from the source of a bacterium. So many questions with not enough answers and resources to initiate a proper treatment protocol in a rational amount of time. Living under the constant veil of unassurance.
There is constant pressure from friends and family to resume your normal life. This is very difficult because who wants to succumb to the conditions of a long term illness that disables them. The people in our lives don't understand the constant reeling that flourishes through our very souls. A disease that shows no external indication of a troubled body, mind and soul, more than likely will lead to the fall out of almost all of our relationships. Forcing you on your own to deal with the thoughts and troubles an ominous plague creates.
Anxiety alone can lead to one making rash accusations and conjuring unforeseen thoughts. Fear is designed to protect. Keep us vigilant in the face of a threat and uncertainty. It's a survival instinct but living in such a state for an extended period of time can have its toll on our physical functions such as the immune system. Living under constant stress and anxiety will only suppress the immune system even more.
It all comes down to controlling your thoughts and finding answers to create an understanding. In time, this will lead to a faster and better recovery from a situation that doesn't have to exist forever. Remember, even though our thoughts are influenced entirely on our surrounding and environment, you have the final say in how they affect you.
Popular herbs for combating anxiety
- Valerian Root - Valerian is a perennial herb most commonly used for insomnia, anxiety and as a muscle relaxer. It is a tranquilizer herb which means it induces a calm and serenading effect over the body. Valerian usually starts to work in about an hour after consuming.
- Kava Kava - Kava Kava is an herb found in the pacific region. It is most commonly used for social anxiety, its numbing effects when chewed and insomnia. Kava Kava usually starts to work within a half hour to an hour and creates euphoria.
- Chamomile - Chamomile is an herb grown as a perennial and annual. It is most commonly used for anxiety, stress relieving, pain and insomnia.