ear Reader,

On June 3 2009 I was served with legal papers charging me with ‘Practicing Medicine Without a License”. I had done saliva and urine tests, that were apparently illegal to do if not an M.D. I had not known that, or I would not have done them.

Come to find out that I had offended a  client who was a non believer in the Messiah.  I am pretty much an ‘I love to share my faith’ in our beliefs, and I later found out that she found this to be unprofessional. During an interview, I questioned her about  pregnancies as part of our intake interview, and she explained that she had had an abortion. I said “I’m so sorry,”  and continued the conversation. Apparently she took that to mean that I was sorry she had the abortion since I was a Christian, and therefore judging her. Angry, she then proceeded to report me to the State licensing board that I was practicing medicine. A ‘spy” from the state came in pretending to be a client, and then I was served. 

I was called to Chicago and asked if I had performed saliva and urine tests in my office on ‘their spy client’. I told the truth, that yes I had done so, knowing that in doing so, I was admitting guilt to the charge. But that was the truth.

I told them that I had no idea that I was not allowed to do that particular test, and apologized. Even though it was the first time, their choice was still to make the charge stick. I accept that decision. That is the law. I could have fought and probably won, because it was the first time, but money aside, I had done what they stated I was not supposed to do (even if unknowingly).

Dearest Client, I pray for you. I also pray that the Father makes you curious about what I am doing all these years later, and He will bring you to this site, where perhaps you can accept my very public apology for hurting you. It was certainly not my intention. I had no idea how what I said sounded to you. Please forgive me. 

I also want to thank you. Because of this web page, and with this forcing me to be transparent in regards to the legal issue. I have had to bring that skeleton out of my closet, and deal with my own issue of separation between myself and the Messiah. Not because of Him, but because of my choice to not forgive myself. Healing is happening for me because of you. Thank you.


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Please accept my apology for not completing that conversation with you. Because of fear and pride, I just skipped over  a discussion, and went on to the next question. I should have trusted you and others to not discard me if you/they knew the truth. I should have explained how I felt a sister-ship with you because of a shared experience. I even say thank you for the actions you took. For years I  was angry with you, but once again the Father has had to bring me round and round the same mountain.  I finally realized that I put myself in that position as a result of decisions I had made. I was afraid to tell about my past life due to ‘Christian’ pride. I was afraid of how I would be judged, because I was a believer when I made that initial decision

Putting this out there on the web is the scariest thing I can think of to do, but everyone needs to know the truth behind this whole ‘legal’ story. I have to be willing to be transparent, if I can really desire to have your trust.

Love in Yahweh, Teresa

Our Heavenly father not only sees our tears, but collects them. How amazing!